can't_talk jennifer I'm not allowed to talk in my house if I do, more oft than not I get in trouble so I talk to you but, more oft then not I can't find the words is it pavlovian instinct am I conditioned not to talk I wish I knew why 001109 ... j_blue i was raised mormon, speaking never came naturally to me either. then i was aquired by my (now) best friend. he worked wonders. now, i find i am shy to more than one stranger, but ok with one, and a blab with anyone i know. 001109 ... sabbie and you ask whats wrong and i find i cant speak. cant talk. cant say. how can i translate something so big as this into something so fragile so hard so fucking useless as words? and whats weird is before it all happened i never imagined that id ever ever run out of words 001109 ... unhinged sorry now isn't a good time maybe later but i'm here screaming sorry adrian is coming over have to go to that party have a crisis on my hands but i'm here screaming... 011013 ... Syrope he once said to a friend "One thing that worries me is I think she thinks that she can't talk to me about higher level stuff..." i cant even talk to him about me supposedly not talking to him... i know better than to say everything i'm thinking. its happened before...i might get called "complicated" or "worrisome" ...i mean, heaven forbid a relationship with me require effort. just because *I* think im worthless doesnt mean i want you to follow suit... 020622 ... girl_jane My lips are stuck. 020928 ... monee my_mouth_is_tied 041224 ... unhinged we had sex and now we can't talk talk about objectifying reality; i really would like to give it any excuse, but the fact of the matter is you are an asshole. and i fall for it everytime. 041224 ... three words and_i_didn't can't_talk i_listen_to_my_words 060315 ... the Hermit The words have been said, in my head, they have already been said. I could say them again, pull them out my brain, and say them again. But by than its too late, the feeling has passed, the words came too late. 060315 ... falling_alone so you should stand behind me and whisper into my ear those eloquent words 060316 ... the Hermit but how many words will it take to tell you? how many verbs does it take to get through? how many times must i look so far to find a word that rhymes with who you are? 060317 what's it to you? who go blather from