echoing_thought
unhinged i want
i want to peel
i want


i want to peel my skin off
i want
i want to peel
my skin off




i want to peel
my skin off with a
with a
with a
razorblade

i want
040426
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birdmad vivisect 040426
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monika I want more
I want you
echoes in my head

I want this
and that
What don't I want?

sadness, anger, hatred...

go away
050328
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unhinged . 050716
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unhinged my wrist itches again
the itch only steel can scratch
051005
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unhinged om

om_mani_peme_hum
om mani

padme hung
padme hung




suffering
suffering is
suffering
suffering is a universal
universal
condition
con dition ion ion

om_mani_padme_hung
om om om om
hum hum hum hum

let me liberate
liberate
liberate
all those that are unliberated
cultivate_compassion
cultivate_compassion ssssssssion

my enemy enemy enemy
is my best stststst
teacher
lama lama lama lama

make
make make make
peace
peace peace peace cccccceeee

right sssssppppeeeeecccchhhh
speech
sssspeechhhhh

om_mani_peme_hum
om_mani_padme_hung
061026
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unhinged while there's some lines i just refuse to cross anymore, it's the first thing that pops into my head when the skin at my wrist starts to itch 080426
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unhinged i want to pull
pull
pull
my skin off today
080528
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no reason and i'd like to pull out my insides
maybe we could build a whole other being
080528
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unhinged om_mani_padme_hum 100103
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unhinged my skin itches today 100124
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unhinged has been strong this week


i wish i wasn't so sensitive sometimes
i wish i didn't let myself get pushed around
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unhinged has been back lately. i feel the memory of the way the blade used to bite the skin of my left forearm. i push the thought away. but here it is again. i scratch compulsively. i stop; i'm ashamed.


but really, this has always been about inexpressible intangible pain. it is welling up in me again from some deep hidden place. no matter how i try to cover it, it always comes out in the end.
160419
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unhinged .

(i scratched compulsively. the marks i left behind weren't satisfying enough. maybe it's time for some new_ink )
170811
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from