quietly_dying Strideo no need to make a fuss no need to stand and shout wasted effort and wasted years left too weary to shed my tears it all dissolved to rust and I'm too old to pout no need to worry no need to fear just feel free to leave me . . . quietly dying here ... 080904 ... unhinged staring out the window the leaves are rustling about to die fall empty staring and all i notice the leaves dying soon to be if you don't make a fuss they can pretend they don't notice cause they don't care you're useless to them dying the raindrops quiet music to the season of my dying you know, not enough to shuffle off the coil just enough to make pain the only thing i can feel caught on the wheel i wish i could just let_it_all_go 080904 ... unhinged last night the season of my discontent somewhat unbearable i said out loud to myself ( saying_makes_it_so ) 'i think i'd rather be dead' old enough not to act on it but_still the only way to stifle that horrible aching to just end 090214 ... BnB Quietly dying... To relax in quiet contemplation... What am I doing? I'm still alive. and as long as life flows though these bones, I will live! I have not exhaled my last yet. Death will come in time, but for now, I will live, even if I only have a glimmer of life left... 090214 ... blown cherry oh god 090215 ... blown cherry bury me now before I stop breathing 090526 ... misstree some day, i will stop being quiet and then it will be done. 090526 ... misstree some day, i will stop being quiet and then it will be done. 090526 ... unhinged i feel like i am in all these tiny parts and there is nothing no one to put them back together (every time it breaks the pieces get smaller and smaller) 090527 ... In_Bloom When you dissemble and all parts of you as you've known yourself become fluid, do you think you'll be a new thing, seeing familiar patterns with new eyes, feeling new sensations? 090527 ... unhinged i feel like no matter how hard i try my light never quite dispels all the darkness 110305 what's it to you? who go blather from