one_lonely_visitor unhinged am i alone in here knew you were here sister confirms suspicions and besides the note you left on my bed where i held you so close did you think i'd forget couldn't be more of a mess for to breathe used to be another way i'd take you in well it's time to wake up and separate feelings that i keep falling into each seem like good reasons but i feel a breakdown i don't care if it shows up i'm praying this for you til it's answered i'll say now it seems there's a choice that began with a break so today know that never again will i know you that way am i alone in here chevelle 021231 ... so fucking lost one lonely night the same lonely night repeated over and over too hard to hold too hard to let go and i thought i was ready 'till the decesion arrived 030101 ... raevyn i thought i'd come to a fork in the road when i approached this place. but all i've done thus far, is hit a wall. my hands, shakey, take the time to find their way to an opening. but they can't seem to feel their way to it. i've screamed my way in, but i'm all by myself. i'm just one more name inscribed. just another visitor on this road to nowhere. one lonely visitor struggling to find her way in life. i've been left behind. if i can't find my way, what will become of me? 050316 ... dandy you'll survive. You could scale the wall, disassemble it, come back where you came from though the road will both look different and feel different because the journey has changed you and you have changed you and are steadily changing you still 050317 ... unhinged in damian's pick-up truck at 8am with no sleep, he was sitting on my lap. me and damian singing along and for the first time the answer 'no' echoed in my head as the dude was singing 'am i alone in here?' i miss him, sadly enough i find there aren't many people in the world with the right words to help when i feel this shitty and he didn't even need words just hugs, cuddles, deep glances i miss him it's_the_terror_of_not_knowing if he misses me too 050317 what's it to you? who go blather from