haunting_phrases puredream "you used to be" (mother) "i've changed" (Lee) "maybe I was wrong" (Lee) "you don't believe me" (little one) "hello" (i love you all soo much.) "it'd be sealed with tears" (pete) "i love you" (...did you mean it? anyone...?) "you don't want to know" (Jesse) "he dropped out of school" (of Joshua) "what are doing next year?" (dying...) "i hate you" (lauren) "i need someone for just a little while" (but not me...I'll never be good enough, not what you're looking for, what am I?) "hold my hand" (please) "yep" (what kind of a reply to "I love you" is that? thanks grandma) "you need someone who can read you. I can't." (a dream, terrifyingly real) 040629 ... puredream *grandpa 040629 ... love & hate "Never talk to me again". That is haunting me. Although i never understood, i told her what to say to get rid of me, that she didnt love me anymore, that i should give up on us and that there is no hope left for us yet she choose the above phrase... My head needs to stop thinking, stop sugar coating everything. Stop reading into every little tiny things which she says with hope that she means what she used to behind it... but i cant, i honestly cant!!!! 040629 ... puredream " I don't want to tell you" 040629 ... somebody "WE NEED TO TALK" 040629 ... somebody " it's not you, it's me" "it's just different now" 040629 ... Borealis brittle silence 040629 ... Borealis your brittle silence 040629 ... unhinged whisper_to_me "you smell intoxicating. please come home with me." to tell me later "i hope that wes knocks on the door and sees me hear with someone else." someone else, not ME, someone else. that's why you didn't get any that night honey. i feel so stupid for everything now. but some of it is etched in my skull. i'm just waiting for someone to come along to replace all this mess with better things. until then, it's haunting me. 040629 ... shivers "people don't cry for no reason" 050521 ... jane it broke me 050522 ... pSyche "I'll never hurt you again" "How can you live with yourself?" "I couldn't stop thinking about you today." 050523 what's it to you? who go blather from