fuck_valentine's_day
unhinged my issues are more glaringly apparent this year than ever

i hate this day
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Ouroboros seriously. it makes me want to destroy things. on the other hand, it does very clearly show me where i'm at. 110214
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Ouroboros I'm just listening to the Deftones "White Pony" on repeat to make it through to midnight. 110214
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no reason celebrate ferris_wheel_day 110215
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Soma but then I wouldn't be able to buy mass quantities of sale chocolates today... 110215
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no reason that's completely different. that's half-price chocolate day, a holiday that occurs several times a year and is well worth celebrating. 110215
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IGG half price chocolate day, well said. i agree with everything in your post, no reason.

easter is coming up.....another half price choc day woop woop! 		110215
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Debby even with a boyfriend it wasn't the greatest. 110218
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unhinged not quite as bitter as i used to be, but it still stabs at my heart a little when once again i am single on day made for nonsingle people


a friend that has dropped off the face of my planet reemerged yesterday to wish me a happy valentine's day and mentioned how her and her boyfriend were celebrating their sixteenth anniversary yesterday...i couldn't help but feel taunted by the comment. she has never understood my frustration with being perennially single. (how could she?) her words ring hollow and self_absorbed to me now. maybe we have grown apart once and for all. such a nice quiet_realizations to have on a day meant to bring people together *rollseyes* 		160215
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daf Chan and I were about 6300 miles into our road trip when I sat down in the back seat with a guitar and wrote this for Lia: the_quest

There's peace and happiness for you. It's inevitable that it will arrive from within if not from without. 		160216
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unhinged (as long as i am alone there is a big part of me that is unhappy; human being/primates are not made to be alone. i am tired of hearing that make yourself happy bullshit. it's a neurological sociological need to have a partner. so i can take a long walk and smile at the sunshine but there is a big piece missing when i have no one to come home to to tell about the camellias face down on the sidewalk already) 160216
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