drowns
sphinxradio
i
don't
like
to
talk
about
this
anymore
.
i
used
to
use
the
metaphor
of
an
ocean
to
describe
my
life
.
inevitably
it
wouldn't
end
well
.
i
think
i'm
getting
better
about
that
,
though
.
i
haven't
thought
about
drowning
for
a
long
time
.
i
haven't
thought
about
the
ocean
at
all
.
011111
...
zoe
i'm
really
drowning
in
a
sea
of
myself
.
you
know
,
when
you
try
to
function
normally
but
you're
just
surrounded
by
all
of
the
fucking
horrible
thoughts
about
your
own
life
and
other
people's.
but
to
get
free
of
it
you
have
to
find
something
to
grab
on
,
and
when
you
try
,
you
reach
out
your
hand
and
it
just
hit
this
impenetrable
wall
of
the
problems
you
have
no
reason
to
have
...
because
,
lets
face
it
,
im
pretty
well
off
and
i
could
have
a
future
if
i
just
grew
the
fuck
up
but
im
too
lazy
and
self
-pitying.
because
self
pity
is
the
most
warm
and
comfortable
blanket
to
wrap
yourself
in
.
it
means
you
don't
have
to
do
anything
to
help
yourself
becuase
you
just
convince
yourseld
you're
too
useless
.
and
then
you
really
are
useless
.
and
you
have
no
right
to
be
alive
when
there
are
thousands
who
never
got
the
chance
to
live
their
lives
properly
because
of
things
that
happened
that
are
beyond
their
control
.
which
my
problems
really
fucking
aren't
.
040211
...
Sa
sometimes
i
fel
like
im
drowning
in
my
own
mind
,
the
thoughts
i
have
the
felings
i
feel
.
the
urge
to
wish
that
i
could
hide
form
life
itself
never
have
to
b
a
part
of
it
,
to
drown
into
the
depths
of
my
deepest
fantasys
my
thoughts
,
what
i
want
most
in
life
!
would
it
be
possible
!
they
say
look
into
the
future
because
thinkin
of
the
past
only
means
u
miss
whats
gna
happen
nxt!
there
is
only
so
much
u
can
hide
away
from
.
040212
...
SA
I
am
not
that
Sa
either
.
I
am
SA
and
Squalidangel
..
040609
...
mission x
u
can
hide
until
u
die
no
one
would
even
notice
it
040610
...
witchesrequiem
My
good
friend
made
a
comment
worth
quoting.......
We
were
toasting
and
I
said
"
here
is
to
good
options
."
She
said
as
"
long
as
we
are
above
ground
."
hmm
.
040611
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
