unhinged ak see: loopy 010310 ... mikey OOPS i hit blather without putting in name and email i hit ak by mistake lol ak first 2 letters of my email i must be tired 010310 ... unhinged what are you doing to me here? i think it's time to take another pill..... 010310 ... crOwl bow across strings love across time 040802 ... psychobabe undone 040803 ... crOwl all the best to you...days full of happiness, nights full of sleep. 050419 ... megan i have found your words lately on red and blue to be a direct link to myself not so very long ago and want you to know that you spew them out eloquently and beautifully and i have enjoyed reading someone's thoughts which remind me so much of my own hang in there 050625 ... unhinged thank you today was a hard day; my brother left again. i've been crying all day. *sigh* 050625 ... crOwl go see him in hawaii. is there a better way to spend your summer vacation? 050625 ... unhinged there probably isn't a better way, but unfortunately our paths just have to be separate for awhile. 050625 ... Norm My beautiful big sister, or maybe she's my little sister. There's few people here in this blather_unreal that I feel a connection with, but this girl... don't know, I could be her guardian angel, could protect her from herself. When someone hurt you. you could come tell me and I'd go have a little "talk" with them. An eleqouent explanation to learn 'em a little lesson or two. Something along the lines of "Pop, pop, BAM." 050625 ... crOwl i always wished i had a sister, but somehow i think we would be doing things like collaborating on stories. two now. 050626 ... unhinged hey_norm i guess the only reason i refer to you as my blather_little_brother is cause i have a reallife little brother much like you. but often times, he protects me and loves me like a big brother. 'just tell me and i'll break his arms off and mail 'em to him.' heh heh hey_crowl our story here on red is the third story we've written together ;-) 050626 ... crOwl david and leigh square the circle what did we call the other one? 050626 ... crOwl scratching his summer buzzed head i remember it's about a gardener and a young girl that escapes and they went to the sea. 050626 ... unhinged it never had an official title and it's hard to find all the pages but i remember one of the pages that had the story was love_dismembers_hours 050626 ... unhinged frank_and_unhinged is the very first page 050627 ... crOwl thanks. 050628 ... unhinged ;-) i started looking through my old stuff on blue recently so it wasn't a problem. it's weird to realize how much i've changed. that happens when you aren't paying attention i guess. 050628 ... crOwl cheers to you! much love always... 060521 ... krupt the violin plays softly in the night, i hear the resonance of the wood, the soft vibrance of the sound, ringing from ear to ear... i hear it in my soul, in my heart, music is what it is to me, it makes me who i am. i am the kruptstar... 080310 ... crOwl i find it quite fascinating that our stories all deal with a couple in search of permanent love. and yet there is always somehting keeping them apart or trying to prevent their union. 080311 ... unhinged i too have noticed the couply nature of our stories recently. i don't know about you, but even from the beginning back on blue, life has had a way of keeping me from the ones i love. states, continents, unmutual feelings; the rest of the world has always interfered with what's really in my heart. a_list_of_you is the only 'real relationship' i've ever had. that lasted for all of three months because i moved to wisconsin, which maybe isn't a bad thing. but, it seems my search for permanent love has always been sadly empty on a more committed intimate level. my (your) pisces horoscope this week said it's about time i realized how great i really am. but the libra part of me is always screaming for someone else to realize how great i really am. but in the past year, i have come to realize my own inherent greatness. maybe that will help others realize it too. 080311 ... unhinged sometimes the violin is my only identity when i can't decide whether i'm angry or sad really happy or just kinda glad i actually like teaching or i could snap at the next strain of twinkle twinkle i need people around me or need to be alone floating in a shiftless sea yep sometimes the violin is my only identity 080311 ... jane i hope you feel okay tomorrow...it was lovely talking with you again. 081007 ... unhinged i slept in since it's my day off. afraid my little binge yesterday only aggravated the cold i've been trying to fend off, but i'm not in any worse shape than i expected to be. let's see if mr. professor of pop culture decides to call me for his date. ( your_voice is soothing) 081007 ... Bespeckled You're one of those people I know has gone through a shit ton of crap, yet you are still so uplifting and motivational and encouraging. You're great. 3, Adriana 081211 ... Bespeckled M***er f***er. You know what I meant by the 3. 081211 ... unhinged not exactly sure how to respond to that in a way that doesn't sound cheesy, but i guess i've always actually considered myself lucky in the 'crap gone through' department. several of my friends have had much worse in their lives and i tried to see it as an example. and if all the shit i've gone through gives me some insight that can help others, it seems justified somehow. since i'm a teacher, being motivational is kind of my job ;-) i think it's the buddhist in me that wants to help and be inspirational even in the face of shittiness. thanks dear. everyone needs some appreciation sometimes. 3, nicole ps. i knew what you meant ;-) 081212 ... unhinged dude, my heart only came out half too. stupid html crap. blah. blather stole half my heart. ha. haha. hhhmmmm. 081212 ... somebody <3 081217 ... somebody i just borrowed it. i'm giving it back. 081217 ... unhinged i have a habit of losing my heart. it often feels too big to fit in my chest. 081219 ... rt smile_at_strangers 090110 ... past not to push you over a ledge, if you are standing near it, but sometimes sobriety is overrated, and there is nothing wrong with (responsible) consumption (within means) or perhaps i'm talking to myself? 090121 ... unhinged not being irresponsible about it perse, but the frequency of it is somewhat alarming. there is something wrong when i feel an overcompelling urge to be fucked up everyday. on_the_other_hand i don't see much difference between what i do and people that take prozac everyday. but, i would love to live my life by the precepts and justifying my drug use by saying it's for medicinal purposes seems like cheating. at this point in my life, affection would be so much better than a bottle of wine, but i find myself settling for the wine much more often. 090122 ... unhinged (i am also developing quite a retail therapy habit. but i'll write that one off to doing my part for my local economy) 090122 ... unhinged like cracking into little pieces barely kept together 090608 ... PeeT is she blue? 120517 ... PeeT so good to know you are still here nicole. 120623 ... cooper rasha nic's influence more than anything; 130107 ... cooper rasha gavin grabbed her hand. 'i love you too.' he squeezed it and she grasped his hand tight. they drove awhile in silence. she wanted to tell him about the baby. she just knew, but she had no medical proof. it had only been a couple of weeks, no missed period. but she was starting to wake up queasy. she could feel roots where there had only been whispers. she disentangled their hands and pressed her belly. 130211 ... flowerock You seem to be a well balance individual, even if you are imbalanced, up and down. My compliments tend to be over emotional an awkward so I'll keep it short. I just wanted to share that thought. I hope your sadness lifts and the wind clears the clouds from your sky enough for the sun to shine through flowering trees over you. you already know that it will be ok. thanks for sharing your words. Im having an emotional empathetic day... 140805 ... raze a very happy birthday to thee. 161011 ... epitome of incomprehensibility Happy yesterday birthday! You're a day after my cousin. 161012 ... unhinged thanks :) 161012 ... raze it makes me so happy to see you here i think my chest is going to explode in one of those deals where the sound seems to multiply as it echoes off of itself: kaboom. kaboom. kaboom-boom-boom. 210728 ... raze 𓆩♡𓆪 Ⓗⓐⓟⓟⓨ Ⓑⓘⓡⓣⓗⓓⓐⓨ 𓆩♡𓆪 𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊 211011 ... unhinged cute!!! thanks for the birthday wishes 211011 ... e_o_i Happy birthday!! 211011 ... Bizzar it's nice to see you still posting, friend. i hope the years have been kind to you. 220222 ... unhinged i don't have much to say here anymore because i was told to take the words i did have to email because certain sides of certain topics are off limits here and i have always been against censorship whether it's self imposed or otherwise but i'm glad to see you back 220222 ... tender_square unhinged, you were asked to take your words to email because you were defiling someone’s blathe, a blathe that kerry poured her heart into about remaining silent when a friend becomes embarrassing, about questioning whether not confronting someone about their problematic behavior is enabling their behavior. i will not stay quiet about your behavior here anymore. you became abusive on a blathe with past, calling him a “snotty asshole” and making comparisons that vaccination requirements are the equivalent of nazism. this was upsetting to all of us here even though we didn’t write that on these walls. this is not okay. you will not undo all the work we have done in the weeks since then to make this a safe space for all. no one is censoring you. if anything, we all censored ourselves from telling you to leave if you’re going to bring an aggressive and confrontational attitude to red because we don't want that energy here. 220222 ... Bizzar i'm sorry. i didn't mean to drudge stuff up. 220222 ... e_o_i unhinged, please don't feel unwelcome. I tried to explain (badly, probably) on please_argue_with_me_instead why past might take things personally, and why kerry might feel you were derailing a conversation, but please don't think that we're all against you. You're my friend and I appreciate you. ... tender_square, I'm sorry that I got mad at you yesterday. I think you're really cool and an amazing writer. And it was really sweet of you to remember when my exam was and wish me good luck. It was just the wording on this particular post that grated: the idea anyone was "defiling" a blathe by being off-topic struck me the wrong way. I suppose it's because of personal experience: I'm often worried people will think I'm derailing things by being off-topic when that's the way my mind works. I know, there are things I need to work through that are my own personal burden, and I shouldn't bring that baggage to an unrelated conversation. I see that now. But I was also worried that unhinged would be made to feel unwelcome *in general* because the wording seemed unduly harsh, and I don't want anyone feeling that way, because I know how it is to be left out. 220223 what's it to you? who go blather from