inherent unhinged unprettiness even though the buddha of self worth has been stirred in me, i can't help thinking it. i've been alone for so much of my life it has to be me. right? (i have an internalization habit) 090203 ... rt your man is coming to you in the right time. 090203 ... unhinged or wo(man) really? at the risk of sounding like a petulant, whiny child when is the right time exactly? how long do i have to wait? is it me? my stars? but really, how long do i have to wait to love someone the way i know i am meant to? the three months of my life i spent with him are receding to an island of mythic proportions. i am sick and fucking tired of sleeping alone or worse sleeping with men i can't stand terrified_of_being_cool terrified_of_being_sweet the sister the friend the stepping stone we started emailing again recently and he said i need to stop being so 'ass rammingly nice' maybe if i became a raving bitch my prince charming would finally find me. 090204 ... unhinged (it has been almost six years since i regularly slept next to someone i loved; it is just cruel at this point. that every person i decide to open_up to is unavailable in one form or another. do i pick them on purpose?) 090204 ... unhinged still alone no longer questioning why no longer trying no longer caring (maybe i'm still in denial) 160519 what's it to you? who go blather from