sharing anomalous caring 050516 ... native persimmon did you all sap my creativity, or did i hand it over - a trust born out of laziness (in turn derived from being surrounded by so many eager hands)? 070605 ... plug hole i feel so drained, every last drop of energy has dripped out. what to do? i have to face the world and accept it again, get ready for another black cycle. i should be used to it by now, it seems like everyone else is, everyone seems quite happy almost, just accepting and not making any action to try to change it. i can't make any action big enough to make a difference to the world, i can only give it what i have, i only have so much energy and now i am drained. nil zero i only need fillling with colour anything else makes me mentally and physically ill. people are grabbing, exchanging hate, breading angar, i don't want to be part of that. let all the dirty water be cleaned. 070605 ... epitome of incomprehensibility In case people want to throw money in useful directions, a blog-commenter-friend in the US is asking for moneys for things: https://www.gofundme.com/sephirajo Sure, sharing equals caring like bear equals hair, but tangents are agents rhyming whatever together. 160101 what's it to you? who go blather from