jonathan_p
KarmaBound
I
know
that
you
will
most
likely
never
see
this
.
Easy
to
write
what
you
will
never
read
.
I
am
so
sorry
for
who
I
was
and
what
I
did
.
I
was
a
person
lost
in
grief
and
apparently
just
could
not
let
go
of
the
past
.
It
kept
me
stagnant
and
I
just
let
myself
slip
deeper
into
alcohol
and
drugs
.
I
just
let
my
true
self
wash
away
until
I
was
just
a
pale
imitation
.
Everything
in
my
world
that
didn't
revolve
around
drugs
or
alcohol
revolved
around
Rocky
,
and
that
was
so
unfair
to
you
Jonathan
.
I
wish
that
I
could
take
back
the
pain
I
caused
because
you
were
one
of
the
few
men
in
my
life
that
treated
me
right
and
I
treated
you
and
your
feelings
like
garbage
.
It
is
a
regret
that
I
will
carry
with
me
of
which
I
have
many
.
I
am
sober
now
on
both
fronts
and
have
an
equally
good
man
in
my
life
that
I
almost
lost
with
the
same
behavior
.
It
is
only
now
with
a
clear
and
sober
head
that
I
realize
all
of
the
ways
that
I
fucked
things
up
and
all
of
the
people
I
hurt
.
You
are
one
that
I
will
probably
never
get
a
chance
to
truly
apologize
to
,
at
least
not
with
any
meaning
,
so
I
will
do
it
here
.
I
am
finally
changing
my
life
for
the
better
.
I
have
been
sober
since
the
end
of
November
last
year
,
no
bad
stuff
for
me
anymore
.
But
I
have
left
of
trail
of
misdeeds
and
hurts
a
mile
long
that
I
wish
so
much
I
could
take
back
.
It
is
only
with
this
clarity
that
I
am
finally
seeing
the
person
I
was
.
I
almost
cannot
stand
to
even
think
or
look
at
that
person
because
she
was
so
horrible
.
I
am
still
not
perfect
,
but
I
am
no
longer
that
spoiled
,
awful
bitch
either
.
I
looked
in
the
mirror
and
did
not
like
what
I
saw
.
I
have
started
to
change
what
I
can
.
I
wish
that
I
could
give
you
more
than
a
two
cent
apology
in
a
place
you
will
never
read
.
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