im_leaving Mahayana [for never] 020709 ... kerry ya scurred me for a minute there 020709 ... she cant take it anymore. something is so wrong. I'm leaving. not blather, no, not blather. of course maybe leaving this place also automatically makes me leave blather. something to ponder. it should be hard, i would think to get to a computer when you have no home. i am making pavement my new home i am leaving this life I am going to get on the plane if he makes me if i get scared enough to go on the plane. and i will get off in another airport. maybe at LA beacuse LA is closer to seattle than any other airport i stop at. and i will never get on the next plane. i will walk out onto the road and I will be alone. I will live because living is instinctual. nobody seems to realize that after a while its just breathing and its not unthinkable to have no home, when driven to a certain place, what else CAN you do, but simply live? and you ask where will i sleep? I haven't a clue! but my body will sleep eventually simply because she has to. and when that time comes, we'll see what happens. the worst that could happen is death and honestly i really don't care. i'm leaving. if anyone wants to let me stay a night at their place feel free to offer. ha... i only have 1 month left... 020709 ... kerry that would make a good song 020709 ... kerry i mean, if the words you wrote were lyrics. and if you put them to music. but if you find what i am saying to be insensitive then disregard it completely. 020709 ... cheer-up-emo-kid on a jetplane. I dont know when I'll be back again. 020709 ... drstrangelove im coming back again. but not on a jet plane. bus probably. but then again life is so weird here with my family anything could happen. im so different since i last visited them. i dont belong here anymore it dont look like. but then again im blind. third eye blind too anymore. wheres_my_spaceship?!! 020710 what's it to you? who go blather from