as_i_lie_here_bleeding silentbob my anus is pulsating my ribs are beaten why can't i remember where i was last night? 010517 ... birdmad clenching tightly and not turning his back a fate i avoided by choosing not to accept the offer made by the little blonde girl wielding the large black dildo on a breezy autumn night long ago 010517 ... In_Bloom He was yelling and I saw his teeth and the flecks of spittle Looked down as they hit my arm He on top my chest, arm across my throat My head hummed and I felt the sweat as if my whole body was lighting on fire He was blurry and my head was so loud *There was a pop sound* Maybe it was my ears Or a last snort for air But as I lie here bleeding and look to the floor to see what he's opened my veins with, I hear nothing and realize he's gone He's left and he thinks I've left too But I'm still here Soiled myself somehow and I taste puke in my mouth But I'm here and I think I'm going to make it In the emergency room they tell me the only reason I didn't bleed out was that my arm folded under my body when I must've rolled over to puke, gasping for air when I came to and then fell out again And every time I catch someone's eye on my arm, I push back the discomfort and go back in time to that day when I was so lucky to even be able to say, "... as I lie here bleeding" 081029 ... Lemon_Soda Peole look at my chest at the beach or anywhere I have no shirt on and smiling with an unsure quality and they ask me what happened. I tell them my ex and I did it for fun. They laugh and say "real smart" and similar jokes like that. I tell them it was fun at the time. My fiance understands and as much as it pains me, I let her run her fingers over it when we cuddle. She likes scars. 081030 what's it to you? who go blather from