you're_safe_as_long_as_you_pretend farmfish i could be what i'm supposed to be if i could just imagine it instead of making the mistakes it takes to learn who i am. living is dangerous, always the possibility of making a fucking ass out of myself. 020119 ... . . 050305 ... no reason until you can't pretend anymore and you spontaneously shatter oh, blather 050306 ... shivers i dont mean half of what i say here. but im not pretending. i write it so i dont have to feel guilty or bad everytime i think it. those little dumb blurbs that pop into your head despite how hard u try to stop them. im sure u've all read those books as a kid where they write down all the mean bad things they feel and throw it in a shoebox and bury it deep. its like that. i'll tell you all the horrible things i've been through if u really want to know. dont feel that im hiding things because i no longer see them as important. dont think that im mad at you for wanting to know more about me. 050307 ... stork daddy oh but i pretend some threatening things. 050308 ... dandy its a safe anonymous outlet to get those loose thoughts that don't fit into any conversation. unexpressed they are sand in the sandal, shake it out, baby. 050308 ... phil don't do what you shouldn't so of course I do that all the time other people stop me of course but every so often I run into other people and we just keep running and falling tumbling into one another 050308 ... unhinged step_out_the_front_door_like_a_ghost 'i need to get high before i go outside' - placebo 050309 ... dreamer you can pretend but you cannott hide you can pretend but you will be numbed 050315 ... pSyche shut your eyes hold your breath and whisper to yourself "they'renotreal, they'renotreal" and realize that you are safe but they are very very real 050316 ... monika I can lie but I don't pretend I'll tell you the truth if you ask it of me But first, tell me your truth Tell me who you are Maybe you can help me find who I am 050316 what's it to you? who go blather from