damn_me jennifer so I lie awake at night and I go over words in my head and they all become clear I'm so very sorry for not understanding before I am wrong and I thought wrong and that's ok but I'm positive that it will be good 001023 ... kate do i say it or do i pretend like i'm not thinking it? all the time, i wonder this. do i say it? 001023 ... jennifer let me know your troubles 001023 ... grendel damn me for thinking that the hand of fate wouldn't bitch_slap me again so soon. hahahahaHA! i'm a fuckin' idiot time has never been, nor will ever be on my side 001023 ... silentbob for thinking that perhaps i coudl quickly get back into the game so soona fter i escaped. 001023 ... amy for not paying attention. 001023 ... kate i know it's damn me, but not in that good way. i don't know when everything changed, but it did somewhere back there. Maybe that's good.. maybe it's bad. I don't know. 001228 ... jennifer it's not either it's just what happened 001228 ... chanaka damn me for taking this for granted - how i began to loathe the routine because of how enslaved i am to it. but then, there was no routine...... damn me to hell! any location is better than this or is hell here? maybe i like being damned then. i did read dante's inferno. hell is a cold place. *shiver* join me? join the damned.....and it's ALL YOUR FAULT! 001229 ... the one i didnt realize all that i had -all that i wouldve always had...but i had to be me and make stupid irrational erratic decisions and wind up in nowhere USA without anyhting to show...people say itll make me stronger. But i dont want to be stronger. I want to be where people laugh at how fucked up i act, where people still think im the sweetest person on planet earth. But DAMN ME...Im an idiot (side note to god: please dont really damn me..ive got enuf stuff to worry about) 011016 ... Sonya the sullen feline for thinking that I actually stood a chance in this outrageous world. Then again don't damn me because I'm already damned and you'd just be wasting your 100% damnation juice. 011016 ... (_) . . . for everything 060210 what's it to you? who go blather from