it_is_true_what_they_say peyton I'll tell you something I am a wolf but I like to wear sheep's clothing I am a bonfire I am a vampire I'm waiting for my moment --- i realized today that i just might be what i've fought she came over today.. again she seems different eager willing wanting needing i can sense it i smell it on her skin it seems to coat her words and pull at me like wispy colored vapors i can tell i am getting inside her i can feel her starting to crack the way she reaches for me and touches me and asks me to come by and visit i find it repulsive almost i looked at her wrapped all around me and i realized that this is what i must have looked like when the vampires came for me it was like an old mirror and a dusty reflection and it disgusted me to look at her I wanted no more part of it. I still don't. She sickens me, almost. I can smell the weakness. The frailty of her soul. How desperately she feels already. I can see her hopes growing deep down.. under the snow. The walls are breaking down. But not mine. I did go and see her, where she asked. She tried to kiss me and I pulled back my head. She looked hurt and turned around. With a finger I spun her back towards me. Mine. That is what you are. I walked out and thought about Jennifer. I wondered if this is what she saw.. when I was so young and pure and vestal. I wondered if that's how she lived her life. I wonder who twisted her. I wonder how good they were. I wonder if this is what a mind_fuck is. I smell her in my clothes. It's like part of her. Something I'm taking, that she'll never get back. She will never get it back. She will never find the best of me. I'll tell you something I am a demon Some say my biggest weakness I have my reasons Call it my defense Be careful what you're wishing Be careful when you come over, sweetheart. Be careful what you're wishing. Somehow it disgusts me. But then, at the same time I think about Jennifer again.. and I am grateful. I am shards of iron mixed with ambrosia. I am... broken glass. And she'll never see it coming. I am a vampire. I am indeed a monster. 051010 what's it to you? who go blather from