i_appear_to_be_home kipper I used to be here all the time, infesting this strange dictionary with my ramblings. A daily, twice daily even, occurrence. That was about two years ago, and i have not been back since. My cover was blown, and people close to me found out who i was on here, and therefore had access to thoughts that i don't share out like sweeties. Very bad, the consequences still make me want to scream. I have always missed it though, it is lovely to have a place like this where you can let your mind go for a walk. It is also great because, i know so many of you, looking through all of the recent blathes, the family are still at large, talking rubbish or spewing great insight, and i get a fresh crack of the whip. I am new and fresh, but also an old hand. Ohhh... fun fun fun. 040317 ... x so much explained 040421 ... three words i_appear_to_be_home when_i'm_five spirit_hunger 180311 ... unhinged . (but i won't hesitate to find a new home when this one gets shitty) 180313 ... unhinged . (but i won't hesitate to find a new home when this one gets shitty) 180313 ... unhinged doublepost 180313 ... Raina Hard to believe I have close to 20 years of blathers in this space. I followed the digital footprints of a crush here and words were exchanged. Meet him in person a decade later and he turned out to be a pretentious bore with a balding hairline and a dadbod. Some crushes should stay simply such. He left, I stayed. I'd leave, I'd return. Started a family, watched dreams die. Tucked my deepest disappointments here because a journal would be too much like right. Over the years omeone began using my name and I backed away, feeling violated and... stabby. A shite word for a writer but I felt exactly that. Now I'm here. Searching for ways to fill the chalice which seems to have unlimited libations for others, while I thirst and yearn. Renewing a history, searching for proverbial clues to who I once was. May I never lose sight again. May I never lose sight again. May I never made sight again. 180313 ... Raina may I never lose sight again 211202 ... Raina may I never 211202 what's it to you? who go blather from