mindful_hugging unhinged i read an article on mindful hugging today. the language was kinda new age hokey the way modern buddhist teachings can tend to sound but it reminded me of something. one specific moment in my life that i got a picture of very clearly. i was standing in the practice room at the space. i might have been leaving or coming. he always hugged me on entry and exit. at that time, i depended on his hugs. i was so nervous and terrified and sad back then. we were standing near the door to the inner room and he opened his arms and scooped me in. i was really hoppy that day and when i tried to pull away he wouldn't let go. he held me until i stopped squirming which took a few breaths and then hugged me some more and when i finally relaxed in his arms he let me go. that is why i miss his hugs. he never let me go until we were both completely relaxed. sometimes he had to hang on. sometimes i would squeeze until i heard things pop. i miss his crooked smile and his impossibly long eyelashes. 071008 ... unhinged a hug is quite literally feeling someone else's breath move their body i think about that article and it makes me realize how intimate hugging really is, maybe religious too. ok maybe not religious, but maybe the purist of physical interactions or something. all i know is hugs heal me. i want more hugs. i think everybody should get at least three real hugs a day. 071008 ... hsg1437 hsg HuGS you. 143, see? the h? the s? the g? h(1)u(2)g(3)s(4) u mind my hug code? hsg...143,,,all surrounding u. hugs, 143 071008 ... sameolme Most days, three or four fully realized hugs are needed to keep me sane. 071009 ... unhinged to bend at the waist and pat on the back not mindful nowhere near healing (sometimes i feel like she is afraid of me to sit near me to hug me because maybe she realizes how i actually like her that she thinks i would do something) 090214 ... unhinged (or maybe given her own record of cheating she keeps her own distance) 090214 ... h|s|g sweat_soaked at parties, i find right_quick who hugs me. 100728 what's it to you? who go blather from