dain_bramage amorfus I'm nucking futs! a moose once bit my sister... 000513 ... Wayne one two menny conk ushins its irreversatile they say butt when them drains a gushin weel fixer up with hay 000519 ... pSyche Something is wrong with me. I can feel it-the gears in my head are turning but I am empty...empty, hollow, and, hallowed. A sacred vessel of nothingness. A servant to some unknown. You make me so happy Half of me is smiling, but the rest of me is crying. You wipe the tears off my face and kiss me, but my body doesn't respond. I'm numb. I don't love you today. You ask me what is wrong and I don't know. Honest to God I don't know. Am I supposed to say "i want you but today I don't love you"? You say you feel it in my kiss. There's something wrong because i don't lose myself in the moment. You swim in a sea of words- my apologies. You say it's okay, but i don't want this- for things to be just okay. I want perfect. I want to just hold you, to be held, but the clock doesn't hold enough minutes in its hands. It's not like you understand how I feel anyways. When I want you to hold me, you turn and tell me your giving me space to think. We kiss and I panic. I think I know that you aren't meant to be mine. I'm terribly upset and I don't know why. I can't even kiss you for very long anymore without breaking into tears. there's a weight about me, and I'm dragging you to the bottom too. I'm sorry. I'm apologizing again. I'm crying, and I don't know why. I'm sad and content and angry and pleased. I want you and I don't want to have you and I want to hold someone but when I hold you I feel cold. Is this what happens when love fades? I feel sure something is wrong with me. I wish it was as simple as "my mother dropped me on my head." But this is the big world. I want my crayolas back. 071030 what's it to you? who go blather from