we_open_the_doors_of_our_hearts .. and some people go a-changin' the locks 020716 ... janelle ....and get hurt 020716 ... Clarey & die a slow & painful death. Which is the alternative to... a slow, painful & lonely death. The former probably hurts more though xx 030627 ... endless desire we open the doors of our hearts afraid of what we will meet on the other side. afraid of what the other person shall do. afraid of how they shall react. afraid of getting hurt. afraid of losing a much loved security. it is beautiful thing, though. opening up your doors. she opened hers everso slightly, peeking out to see if he had done the same. and when she saw that he had and that he had dared to open his further an inch further still she followed. both afraid and in love. by the time they found that their doors were wide open, they looked back and chuckled at when they would barely open them a crack. for if they had known the wonders that rested right outside, they would have thrown open their doors and grasped it with everything they had. but she smiled at the timid starting point the awkward moments, the unsure seconds that passed. he did also and they sit and reminisce often because she loved those times. it was only sitting in his car, parked on an empty street speaking of good times and smiles, that she realized there was no need to live in the past when the present was just as beauitful. she wrote on her door a quote that she heard. it frightens, her as the truth often does. "once you open your door to one person, anyone can come in." so starting with one love, in come a flood of people she trusts. now the girl is very glad she took a step. 030627 ... unhinged and sometimes they get slammed back in our face or sometimes we let thieves in that take everything they can carry chogyam trungpa wrote of the genuine sadness of an open_heart ( bodhichitta ) and the resonance of my experience of that made an indescribable feeling inside me of rightness sensitive yes i am and i refuse to let others slam the door of my heart if you cannot accept me that is not my fault 110512 ... unhinged genuine_heart_of_sadness 111025 ... unhinged (and a week later i met him, the man that changed my life my heartmind ) 111025 what's it to you? who go blather from