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unhinged bisexual erasure
the last frontier of bigotry


that even in the 'community'
it has to be all or nothing
competing agendas
in groups
out groups


i expected a straight man
to tell me i was selfish
but it stung more
when the gay man
told me i had to pick a side


i am bisexual because
i do not want to limit
my ability to find practice and have love


(girl
you don't have to tell me
about code_switching)


my german grandma
hated my polish mother
to her face
and mine

(girl
you don't have to tell me
about otherizing)

but that's another story
for a
different page


you say its easy
that i could have anything
anyone
so it must be easy


ha


easy to get a man
that wants another mommy
to appreciate my need to
disregard hierarchy
in my most intimate relations
to respect my fiercely independent nature
that bucks domination
and craves mountain solitude

ha


easy to get a woman
any woman
raised on disney fairy tales
to appreciate the depth of my devotion
to her holy copy
of the mother goddess
that lives inside us all
that i would make an offering out of
our life together
that i would worship her utterly
in a way impossible and unknown
to anything with testicles
even if that meant surrendering to friendship
when that was a pale comparison
to the flame she lit
in my heart


ha


easy to carry that kind of passion?
easy to refuse the roles that others
as a matter of course
subject me to?
easy to pretend that pieces don't exist
in order to make others
more comfortable in my presence?



if this pandemic
has taught me anything
it has been:

nothing worth doing
has every been


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