you_are_not_fucking_alone
oblivion
so
stop
putting
yourself
in
that
position
.
I
love
you
god
knows
why
...but
I
do
and
I
love
him
.
and
I
know
you
hate
me
for
it
..but
I
do
.
and
when
he
hurts
.
I
hurt
and
when
you
hurt
I
hurt
and
when
you
hurt
eachother
...I
tear
myself
apart
limb
from
limb
not
even
knowing
who
to
talk
to
..
and
i'd
never
talk
to
either
of
you
again
if
I
thought
it
would
make
a
difference
...or
I
could
do
it
.
but
I
feel
a
responsibility
for
putting
both
of
you
where
you
are
.
maybe
because
I
did
.
maybe
because
you
feel
the
need
to
place
it
upon
me
.
maybe
you
need
to
re
-evaluate
some
things
.
like
my
dragging
you
down
.
i'm
sure
you
at
home
..
either
frantically
cleaning
up
..or
talking
to
your
parents
..or laying
in
bed
wondering
about
the
stupidity
of
your
average
teenager
.
think
...and
admit
to
yourself
one
of
these
days
what
it
is
that
you
really
are
.
and
what
you
do
to
people
.
and
what
good
it
is
.
and
what
bad
it
is
.
have
you
ever
?
or
do
you
think
its
all
love
.
do
you
think
I'm
all
gone
..and
everything
I
do
will
tear
that
boy
apart
?
do
you
really
think
that
this
hurts
me
less
than
it
hurts
you
?
me
who
loved
him
when
you
hated
him
.
and
loved
him
when
you
loved
him
,
and
loved
him
when
you
resented
him
again
.
not
that
I
could
ever
give
him
what
you
gave
,
but
you
don't
give
me
ANY
Fucking
credit
.
and
yes
i'm
drunk
.
yes
i'm
dealing
with
the
separation
from
you
EXACTLY
the
same
way
i
dealt
with
andrew
..except
I'm
alone
this
time
.
I
"m
not
even
bothering
to
try
to
cover
it
.
I'm
a
lucid
drunk
.
I
was
watching
you
.
and
I
know
you
thought
I
was
a
fucktard
.
but
you
...are...painful...to
watch
...
and
I
hope
you
never
read
this
.
now
I
get
to
go
back
downstairs
,
and
try
to
fall
asleep
to
their
lovemaking.
or
go
upstairs
..and
fall
asleep
knowing
what
is
going
on
downstairs
.
knowing
all
the
while
that
he
should
be
with
you
.
he
never
should
have
been
with
me
.
and
the
place
he
is
now
..
could
be
his
point
of
no
return
.
i'd
tell
you
to
fuck
off
if
I
didn't
love
you
as
much
as
I
did
.
so
have
a
good
sleep
.
041031
...
unrelated
to
this
except
by
title
,
as
usual
,
the
safe
guess
is
you're
fucking
with
someone
else
041101
...
unhinged
accept
200913
what's it to you?
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go
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