remember_you're_a_person_too hsg This was the beginning of my learning to care for myself when I had put others' needs before mine. 110423 ... unhinged my shambhala_training has reminded me overtly experentially in practice to be gentle open disciplined with myself makes me more gentle open disciplined with others 110423 ... unhinged i.e. in the past, his aggression would have been contagious. i would have texted, called, voiced my pain in the same aggressive manner. we would have been stuck in our own personal cycle of samsara , our relationship a matter of degrees of suffering. this time, as much as it hurt me, i refrained. i stayed quiet. i let_go . and mostly i see no need to continue the cycle we found ourselves in for a fourth time. i deserve to take care of myself, surround myself with love, like_minded people, happiness. and i am getting better at making choices that support that. but that doesn't change the fact that it has taken a lot of exertion to leave him behind that it hurts like hell sometimes to do the right thing 110423 ... hsg G entle O pen D isciplined I think I have an acronym_addiction Remembering reading the phrase good_order_and_Discipline I questioned why in class that this abbreviated spelled G_O_D The question was not appreciated. 110423 ... unhinged passtervana the_fundamental_interconnectedness_of_all_things the fundamental wisdom of the tradition i choose to have faith in is pretty much the same as all others happy jesus day He pulled my ass out of bed early today 110424 ... bill jenkins Jesus was a person just like you. 110425 ... unhinged yes, i agree. son of god? risen from the dead? died for my sins? none of that makes any sense to me. but from all i can gather, he was a pretty amazing person. when you can give others hope and faith in the face of all the suffering in the world, that makes you pretty amazing in my book. 110425 ... unhinged (but he's never really treated me like a person. i am going to the cell phone store tomorrow and getting his numbers blocked) 110425 ... unhinged . 140206 ... silentbob agency 140207 ... silentbob remember_who_you_are 140208 what's it to you? who go blather from