eyes_cast_down unhinged because this look i feel in my eyes has been known to scare people 090210 ... . because I know my value to you. 090210 ... unhinged away from her petulant arms folded the way she reached out to ruffle your hair grab your hand because we hate each other me and her jealous of what the other has with you but i'm now rendered meaningless since he's never felt the desire to sleep with me i keep my eyes cast down to hide the hate jealousy raging and broken aloneness that borders on tears way too often 090212 ... unhinged i currently lack the energy for walking let alone pretending 090212 ... not found We should cast our eyes upward or else we might miss others like ourselves. You know the ones with passion and emotion also in their eyes. I myself was told that I have really intense eyes that speak loudly. I was often accused of giving "that look". She secretly loved it but wanted her lover to look at her as I did, and after awhile I had to learn to suppress my soul. I guess somethings are just better left unsaid. I feel so muted now in all of this suppressive pretending. Like I have been asked to hide who I am and that doesn't feel so free. I loved that rising and falling sensation that used to fill my chest when I looked at her. It takes far too much energy withholding that which is only natural. 090213 ... unhinged so i don't slip on the ice black and insidious 090306 ... harglaglarglar harglaglarglar harglaglarglarharglaglarglar harglaglarglarharglaglarglarharglaglarglar din_da_da_dun_doe_doe_din_da_da_dun_doe din_da_da dun_doe_doe din_da_da dun_doe 101105 ... unhinged eye_contact has once again proven to be dangerous 130426 ... unhinged i couldn't look you in the eye your sadness would have started a chain_reaction i would have wept which has always been something i have been ashamed of (i was told i cried too much as a child) as an adult it's something i prefer to do in private 140121 what's it to you? who go blather from