in_the_wake_of_the_thunderstorm unhinged the earth shifted it tilts on a different axis now a violent spring leaves a more noticeable peace in it's wake slowly i trained myself to the positive side my inner nag so loud and strong but certain events in the past decade have led me to my inherent goodness you were the most recent (i go out alone a lot i strike up conversations with strangers in the past year i've heard 'that's a good way to look at it' sic so many times but it's still surprising) there was an unnamed electricity between_us coincidence of wavelengths sine waves when added together increase the amplitude of each_other stronger_than each one separate a mathematical simplicity imposed on the unexplainable we were more together than we were apart i know you felt that too somehow i learned to be a pedestal silently accepting oddly the last apology you left me convinced me i_am_doing_the_right_thing by walking_away i accepted you but you never accepted me you were incapable thanks to you i've learned to weather any storm my heart can let_go i believe my habits can be overcome panic and fear have no place here i am a strong confident pedestal that deserves something beautiful to support i am still waiting for all the flowers to sprout watered from all the tears i am still writing trite cliches because at the core of it something as elemental as how you, us changed me is beyond words 110517 ... unhinged the earth is scrambling to absorb the moisture flooded 110517 ... unhinged you taught me that abandon_expectation completely is a bad idea my acceptance didn't help you make_better_choices (although i don't know you now maybe it did) 110517 ... D it does and it hurts. . 110517 ... unhinged and_yet my first reaction is still panic 111016 ... () (!) 111016 ... unhinged the rain doesn't rumble here my heart stagnates smartphones make stupid people my heart makes walls i'm closed off my heart stagnates 151203 what's it to you? who go blather from