i_am_doing_the_right_thing unhinged meditate shamatha shambhala 110515 ... unhinged inhabit my self means walking_away 110515 ... unhinged my time at the shambhala center has been important to me in the past couple years. until recently, it was a refuge and place of sanity. there are certain days or talks in particular that stick out in my mind. maybe it was a saturday morning cafe, maybe it was a training level, but we were asking questions. 'how do i know i am doing the right thing?' in reference to meditation 'cause it feels wrong' ah_ha in reference to you that also holds true i never had a problem caring about others either. but when i was young, i most often did that at the expense of myself. i've slowly started to grow away from that, but with you so many things went right back to where i started. you put me right back where i started; when my heart was open to helping those that needed it most. before the pain became unbearable and i shut myself off. but you couldn't follow through. so i need to take care of myself now; which feels selfish, wrong. which is how i know it is right 110517 ... unhinged . i am coming back to_you just_the_thought like cool rain on a hot day 120130 ... unhinged . by staying by holding my ground by telling you the truth 130426 what's it to you? who go blather from