pressure_washed_brain misstree why isn't it shiny yet? i was promised shinies. 050712 ... Syrope i took off this weekend and went to the beach and to king's dominion. i laughed til it hurt, i did things i was afraid of and reveled in the endorphins, i was scared to hear myself being honest. i miss having drama-free friends. i get up too early...by evening, the morning feels like days ago. i want to stay up late every now and then doing *nothing*...today is our 11 month anniversary. i've been reading more, going to the gym less...too bad i'm still paying for the gym. I_Knew_A_Woman made me cringe and long for my periods again. Prodigal_Summer made me want to go to the mountains. this will be the 2nd week i've not done/finished the lab and just used data from my friend's old labs. i bombed my first data structures test but still will probably get a higher grade than i deserve. i just calculated, and i have enough money to pay off my credit card again this month. that makes two months that i've paid this ridiculous rent out of my own pocket and still lived an impulsive and indulgent lifestyle, without dipping into even temporary debt and interest rates. all summer dad's been saying just to let him know how much money i need at the end of the month. every month i tell him i don't need any, and he takes this news with no emotion. not relieved, but not proud of me either. i haven't told my parents about the new job for fall yet. i need to start hardcore packing. i move out in a little over 2 weeks...that weekend i'll probably go insane. or maybe i'll eerily take it in stride... 050713 what's it to you? who go blather from