and_something_inside_me_awoke jane if i told you that i was unhappy, what would you do? would you tell me to stop being so naive? would you listen intently but be void of any solution? would you tell me that it's my own damn fault? you're right, you know. i told the world i was unhappy, and she ignored me. i told the sky, and it listened intently, but dared not respond. the roses stared at me, forcing to look inward to find my solution. you're right, you know. it is my own damn fault. i wish i was with you right now, without the pressure like a vise clamped around my skull, waiting for the second i crack. it may be my fault. i don't really think so anymore. it's not your fault either, not the sky's, or the roses. it's not really anybody's fault. i'm not really unhappy. 021006 ... bespeckled when you touched me, when you searched my body, [not my soul, oh no, not even my soul - or my heart] and it rose into my eyes, which glazed over with fire, and I burned a hole over your shoulder, out the window, far away, to some long ago place in space. It turned my eyes to fire and my heart to frigid stone. 021006 ... jane you're not right for me anymore and it's time to move on it has been for a long time but i'm too scared to be alone or end up in something worse 021008 ... krimilda when I remembered all those other times I thought the world would end... it never did... it won't happen now either 021008 ... krimilda my fire will come back... I won't be alone anymore 021008 ... distorted tendencies And then.. I was pulled by gravity. Oh I want it to come back so bad. Oh I want to feel good.. I want to dance forever in eternity. Meet_Me_In_Eternity. 021008 ... margaux but i did not 021014 ... ItGirl You scared me... I've always know it... I who fear nothing ( except ladybugs ). You scared me... I am afraid of you the way a rabbit fears the fox, and the gazelle fears the lion. Perhaps it's the way you stare intently into my eyes with your lips parted... maybe its what I see there... in that quietly demanding stare I see the way you want me... and it frightens me like nothing else... 030714 what's it to you? who go blather from