tell_me_what_to_do foolish please! please know that i love you so much. i'm stunned and speechless still, to say the least. nothing usually surprises me, but you are the first person who has totally shocked the hell out of me. i'm not sure, but the emotion i think i am feeling is foolish. i keep replaying everything that has happened thus far, trying to put it into this new light. i keep wondering how many things i said that made you snicker, as you thought of your little secret. i'm not one who gets embarrassed, but let me tell you, that thinking of things that has happened, i am embarrassed as hell about them. not because i now cast dislike or regret upon them, but because of the 'foolish' feeling i have about it...as if i should have known or something. i have so many damn questions to ask you. i don't know where to start. i also feel you may not want these questions, but if you love me, then you had better bear through them, and i know you do baby. oh my god, am i in a dream here? i felt protected by you, and now i am not sure. no, i think i do. my brain is so clouded. i just keep thinking...'what!?' 'what!?' 'what the fuck!?' i thought all night about my forgiving you, and i have discovered that i meant it. i really do. as far as the trust issue goes...i'm still thinking. please understand that you turned my world upside down, and not in a trivial way. nothing, and i mean NOTHING could possibly ever, ever, ever, ever, ever top this in the shock category! this event has also opened a whole new can of worms inside of myself. i mean, being drawn to you like i have been, unlike anyone ever in my life, and then this discovery, has made me re-think my ummmmmm.....position, concerning what type of person i am attracted to. is that who i am? what i want - i have only found in you. only in you. and i... oh my god! i'm just... i am out of words. i need to call my daddy... 010119 ... G_wiz13 i know how you feel my girlfreind has done the same to me. 010119 what's it to you? who go blather from