pralines_n_cream_corner pralines&cream This is my corner, I'll set aside, for days I feel like writing in a diary, and realize I type much faster than I write. Pralines&cream_corner will also accept uninvited guests with the utmost hospitality. I sit in my corning, conjuring up my boyfriend's image, trying to use it to forget about the econ homework I need to do tonight. 020110 ... pralines&cream Well, today was unproductive, to say the least, unless you consider getting most of "Harry Potter and the sorcerer's stone" read productive. At least I'm looking pretty hot in my short gray pajama shirt and jeans with the cutoff waist. 020113 ... pralines&cream I'm at school right now, supposed to be working on my layout for newspaper. Damn, I need to call my mom and ask her to bring my white soccer shorts to school. I'd drive home and get them myself, but we have a closed campus. Isn't that nice. 020114 ... pralines&cream At newspaper again, but a different day. My mom forgot the shorts, so i had to borrow someone's sweatpants. Ick, and it was very hot yesterday. I was not just semi-sweaty, i was pretty ... sweaty-sweaty. But I have my shorts today, so yay, I'm going to wear them. And of course, it just had to be very cold today, too ... In other news, I woke up with a scratch on my face the other day that i though was skin cancer, because it was very dark, but it's just a scratch. Maybe I did it in my sleep. Again, unproductive period. On a "who's getting some" meter: Newspaper:0 Blather:7 At least I can go get a turkey grinder in ten minutes. 020115 ... pralines&cream So, guess where I am? Yep, at newspaper, which I think deserves a little attention today, especially since my photo requests are due Friday. So, today we had a test in my AP statistics class (which i would have aced if it hadn't been for the fact that I'm becoming a slacker and not doing my homework), and after the bell rang, as I was rising to leave, I noticed this boy with blonde hair, that i see everyday. I noticed that his black hooded sweatshirt said alkaline_trio. So I said: "Hey, I've heard of them." "yeah?" "aren't they from ... Chicago?" I begin to leave the class "How'd you know they were from Chicago?" Pause at door. "I read about them online." That was my little blather-meets-real-life moment. Whoa. *smile* 020116 ... argo I don't know what's funnier 020116 ... silentbob I helped you! i'm happy. that guy's probably in love with you now. A girl that likes alkalinetrio is like super sexy to guys. huh huh...huh huh at least to me anyway. 020116 ... pralines&cream Well, I don't really *like* them, since I've never really heard them ... so his infatuation is hollow, a bubble that will soon pop. Dare I say that in 9th grade I liked to listen to ... *gasp* NSync?? (Independently, and of my own choice though, not through some teenybopper wanna-fuck-justin-timberlake fan club or anything. So at least I still had some dignity.) 020116 ... pralines&cream I'm feeling beautiful today and i don't know why. My tag was itching me today, so now my shirt is inside out. I have satin sheets on my bed now, and I look forward to slip-sliding in my bed. But most of all, I'm missing his kisses. But more than that I'm missing his face. But more than that and more than anything I'm missing your soft body and the warmth in you that I still haven't found ... I'm missing our future love like you don't even know. 020119 ... pralines&cream Let me cry on your eyes, and wipe my tears on your shirt. Understand while I scream and bury my face into your chest. Caress my hair as I sob and grip your shoulders, not because I'm mad, or heartbroken, but because I miss you. I miss you enough to scream and throw a tantrem, and through glass at the walls! I misS YOU!!!!! GOD!!!!!!!! I want you!!!!!!! AAAHHHHhhhh!!!!!!!! 020119 ... pralines&cream I'm in the third harry potter book ... three more chapters to go till the end. I need some inspiration. I haven't found any tonight. Well, I did find a little, but i expected so much more ... 020120 ... SuicidalAngel Just so you know, I enjoy reading your corner! :)I'm inspried to write my own! 020121 ... pralines&cream thank you! yayers :) I think you should start your own. :) But you can keep writing in mine, too :D 020122 ... Photophobe Is it the socerers stone in (pralines n' cream country)? In Australia its the philospher's stone. How odd. 020123 ... SuicidalAngel I was wondering why some people are so offended by Harry Potter and it's because a witch writes those books. His spells are real ones. I still thought "who cares"! I dont know what the attraction is though, I can't see myself getting into them. 020124 ... old heathen J.K. Rowlings is a woman. and the fanatical christians who grouse and bitch and moan aboiut Harry Potter or any other works of fantasy think that any story centered on or featuring magic (other than ecumenically sanctioned "miracles") is by default "bad" by their definition all that is not in keeping with their definition of good and godly is automatically demonic in nature 020125 ... pralines&cream Here in the U.S. it's "Sorcerer's stone," but I want to get my hands on the Philosopher version. I heard parts of the novel are different also. I'm not in the fourth book ... Harry potter is such a wonderful addiction. :) Speaking of banning the books, the Christian school that i went to during elementary (that my sister now attends) has banned Harry Potter books, for the same reasons mentioned above - witches, wizards, spells ... highly immoral and secular, nevermind that it's fiction. I was very upset when i heard about the ban, but not too surprised - when I went there in 4th grade, they banned R.L. Stine's Goosebumps books because they were secular and "too scary". They also banned pogs (a form of gambling you see, since winners kept the loser's pogs.) Tsk tsk tsk. *shakes head.* *************************************** In other news, the Midwinter Ball for North High School, in Riverside CA (my school, my city :) is tonight! I need to start getting ready. My dress is black, kind of tight, with a choppy bottom, and a sheer black layer over it. My boyfriend's taking me to Black Angus for dinner. I love my steak and potatoes!!! 020125 ... pralines&cream i am *NOW* in the 4th book, not *not* ... eerrrr ... fuck me. 020125 ... pralines&cream Still in book 4, less than 150 pages to go ... Currently working on Abe's senior yearbook ad. I bought him a full page. I got quotes from his parents, sister, and brother to put on it, along with my own. I'm using Photoshop 6.0 and Quark XPress to make it. I hope to finish tonight. I love my boyfriend very much. 020128 ... pralines&cream I realized beauty today. 020201 ... pralines&cream my desktop is now ewan mcgregor ... he's so beautiful :) 020203 ... pralines&cream my obsession worsens ... his lips, his teeth (his smile resembles my boyfriend's ... hmmm ... freudian?) his face and his voice are melted onto my brain!!!! - Shit!! I have to read two chapters tonight for Lit!!! Argh, crap!! - Well, yes, anyway, Ewan ... Ewan ... how i am infatuated with thee ... your face is on my desktop ... your voice is in my portable cd player on my bed ... how beautiful you look in a tuxedo ... in suspenders ... in a top hat ... in anything ... Would my boyfriend be jealous of my infatuation/obsession? Well, yes, probably ... but Ewan is so Scottish, so celebrity ... so out of reach ... and despite all his beautifulness, he's not THE man of my dreams ... I already have him :) 020204 ... pralines&cream Major newspaper disaster tonight ... weeks' worth of work gone with the click of a mouse and the appearance of a "your disk is corrupted" sign. Must fix, from scratch, in ... how long do I have? Oh yes, less than 24 hours ... about 18 hours actually. crap. 020212 ... pralines&cream Finally. Semi-starvation and excercise is beginning to pay off. Went from 141 on Wednesday to 138 on Thursday morning, and I'm still at 138. 10 more pounds to go :) 020307 ... pralines&cream Yay. 6 pounds to go. Now I have to go take a practice SAT. Fun, fun, fun. 020309 ... pralines&cream canker sore. tired. 020401 ... pralines&cream well, i haven't visited my corner in a while ... hmm, what's new? I just got in a fight with my boyfriend because his whole world does not revolve around me (although that's not what my argument was when I actually told him why I was mad) and after giving blood at my school, they did tests on it and told me I was at risk of having hepatitis C. So I go to my doctor, get my blood tests, and both tests come out positive. Crap. Haven't been formally diagnosed - have to see a specialist first. Will Hepatitis C kill me? Will it break down my liver even if i don't drink or do anything else to hurt it? I'm scared in the back of my mind ... but in the front of my mind, i think "I feel healthy ... I am healthy." 020506 ... kill rhythm i really like the idea of having your own little corner...but if i did it, it would be nothing worth reading. i would just sit here and complain about how much i love a guy that doesnt love me anymore. but i like reading what you say pralines :) 020507 ... black you've got hep you will die the end 020507 ... pralines&cream damn, that's what i'm afraid of. argh. kill rhythm, thank you. I'm really not an interesting person, though. I'm sure you're blathes about your lost love are more entertaining than mine about blood tests and canker sores. 020508 ... pralines&cream well, so, prom was last night, and surprisingly to me, I won junior princess. Yay :) They really love me :) Two Econ. AP tests tomorrow :( Blah. And a meeting with the principal on wednesday to talk about newspaper stuff. whoopee. 020512 ... black ((echo)) hep hep hep ((echo)) sssssssssssskkkkkilllllll 020516 ... die die my darling hepatitis c kills almost no one, but hopefully you'll get an especially viscious case of it which will cause you to have a slow and painful death 020517 ... A ♠ and maybe you, whoever you are, will get your pubes caught in a conveyor belt or something equally painful that leads to just enough sexual mutilation to prevent you from ever breeding. is it fun to be a mouth breathing, low-forehead cock_knocker with nothing better to do than to harass other blatherers? are you one of those old fashioned cases of syphillis induced mental instability (maybe that's why p & C's having Hep C gives you such a rise, eh?) 020517 ... amused and maybe when the black plague comes back, your oversized ear hair will get caught in the basket of a hot air balloon, and by the time you fall you'll be right over the ocean, which god had just recently decided to dry up, and so they would have dumped all the rotting plagued bodies in it, and you'd fall on them and they'd break your fall enough to keep you alive for 40 days of starvation, pain, and immobility it must be fun wasting your time insulting blatherers, because you just did it too (ever hear about the hyprocrisy of the death penalty?) 020517 ... pralines&cream well, since blather is blather, even those who lack compassion and enjoy speaking out of their asses (which, i too, have been guilty of) have the right to blathe on any page they choose. Knowing what I do of immaturity, i try to overlook those types of blathes that concern me. So black, if you were looking to insult me or scare me or annoy me, sorry. You've only shown me that whoever you are, you can certainly be an asshole. Thank you, ace of spades, for also recognizing that. Well ... on to happier, brighter things ... any body have anything happy to say? 020517 ... not black I can happily say that you're a barbie wannabe stupid piece of shit Love, Just someone else who hates you 020518 ... pralines&cream hmm 020519 ... peyton well I think she's super so there :P 020617 ... sarpedon you speak lovely thoughts some that inspire and some that fall from my eyes and pool into saline puddles under my chin 020617 ... pralines&cream I had a dream and you were in it. When I woke up, I knew I'd forget it, but I so wanted to remember it. But of course, I've forgotten. And now I'll never be able to describe it to you. The closest I'll get is to say "I had a dream, and you were in it." But I won't be able to tell you what we did, or where we went, or whether or not we were in love. (also blathed under "dream" on blue.) 020619 ... pralines&cream Hey, thanks guys You made me smile. see: :) 020619 ... pilgrim Oh! look she wears glasses.. ::) !!! 020620 ... pralines&cream Today I went to grocery store. Usually, when I go to the grocery store, I don't buy many things at one time, so I pay for my stuff in the "10 items or less line" or the "15 items of less" line. Well today I bought more stuff than I usually do, but out of habit, I went into the 10 items line. As I was paying for my stuff, the cashier starting lecturing the woman behind me about having too many things in the 10 item line. Then I realized that I probably had more than 10 items, too (I had put at least 8 Yoplait Whips in my cart, along with 2 gallons of milk, a caesar salad, a bag of potatoes, and a package of listerine mints). I felt bad, so I shamefully admitted to the cashier that, I too, had more than 10 items in the 10 item line. Fortunately, she told me that I wasn't that far over, and my Yoplaits were small, so apparantly, I wasn't as naughty a shopper as the lady behind me. Still, I felt bad about my overitemization. 020621 ... wtf? um...and is this the kind of stuff you actually care enough about to write in a diary, or anywhere, for that matter? 020621 ... pralines&cream um, yep. :) 020621 ... pralines&cream so, I haven't visited this corner in awhile now. I actually haven't written on blather in awhile, but I do read it almost daily. (And what I do write on red is usually under a different name.) Anyway, I've actually gotten a real blog, so I don't have to clutter blather with my daily musings anymore. So where this corner leaves off, "I smiled out loud" (http://ismiledoutloud.blogspot.com) takes over. I guess as a final entry here, at least for now, I'd like to say thanks to all the blatherers out there, for all your musings, ponderings, and insight that you've allowed me to see. Blather is truly a great thing, I think that even hot-tempered arguments have served to enrich my experience here. I'm still reading. And I'm still writing periodically, but you probably won't recognize me. Thanks again, everybody. 020815 ... pralines&cream Four years older, four years wiser, four years more mature, (now using a different blather name), and it is still suprising apparent how obvious assholes can be. It's so interesting to see how certain people, stumbling upon a blathe written by a high school girl, with all of her seemingly mundane high school hang-ups and image problems, are so affected it by it that they take the time to ridicule and insult her. Do these people really go around hating every slightly insecure teenage girl who only wants to be pretty and popular, because that's what high school is about? It would be funnier to read these ridiculing comments again, except that I know people like this are everywhere - people who spend 85% of their time hating others who stick their necks out to discuss the pressures they feel to be "perfect." For the record, I was never a ditzy, blonde and bouncy cheerleader stereotype. I was a dorky, fun-loving and emotional girl who loved working on her high school newspaper and happened to also be tall and fairly attractive; who also happened to play volleyball and soccer and be surrounded by girls who she thought she could maybe someday be like if only she ate less and read Cosmo more. Sound familiar? It should to anyone who's ever gone through adolescence. Just as I've grown up, I'm sure the people posting ridiculous insults four years ago have as well and are able to look back at their younger selves objectively (and hopefully, forgivingly). But the fact that someone would utter such hurtful things to a young, vulnerable and emotional girl is simply ... ridiculous. And it's awful to know that there are people like this in all of our lives. I for one, will continue to steer clear. To those of you who defended me back then, thank you. I never actually felt severely attacked, and it in fact enrages me far more as an adult to look back at how mean people can be than it ever bothered me as a high school teen; thanks for being able to see beyond the angst back then. Long live blather! 060701 ... pralines&cream Four years older, four years wiser, four years more mature, (now using a different blather name), and it is still suprising apparent how obvious assholes can be. It's so interesting to see how certain people, stumbling upon a blathe written by a high school girl, with all of her seemingly mundane high school hang-ups and image problems, are so affected it by it that they take the time to ridicule and insult her. Do these people really go around hating every slightly insecure teenage girl who only wants to be pretty and popular, because that's what high school is about? It would be funnier to read these ridiculing comments again, except that I know people like this are everywhere - people who spend 85% of their time hating others who stick their necks out to discuss the pressures they feel to be "perfect." For the record, I was never a ditzy, blonde and bouncy cheerleader stereotype. I was a dorky, fun-loving and emotional girl who loved working on her high school newspaper and happened to also be tall and fairly attractive; who also happened to play volleyball and soccer and be surrounded by girls who she thought she could maybe someday be like if only she ate less and read Cosmo more. Sound familiar? It should to anyone who's ever gone through adolescence. Just as I've grown up, I'm sure the people posting ridiculous insults four years ago have as well and are able to look back at their younger selves objectively (and hopefully, forgivingly). But the fact that someone would utter such hurtful things to a young, vulnerable and emotional girl is simply ... ridiculous. And it's awful to know that there are people like this in all of our lives. I for one, will continue to steer clear. To those of you who defended me back then, thank you. I never actually felt severely attacked, and it in fact enrages me far more as an adult to look back at how mean people can be than it ever bothered me as a high school teen; thanks for being able to see beyond the angst back then. Long live blather! 060701 what's it to you? who go blather from