infatuation stupidpunkgirl remembering the girl with a boy's initials carved into her ankle they've been together for years now but i'm not sure it's love and if it is...i don't want anybody to carve my intials into their ankle 010212 ... splinken when you like someone a lot more than they like you. this doesn't happen to me. usually. 010213 ... misstree i will use you to open up every vein, until the blood on my tongue runs with the taste of you. i'm not happy unless i'm brokenhearted. 010213 ... unhinged how can you be both at the same time? 010317 ... chanaka i get this feeling when you talk to me. we talk all the time, but the startling voice on the phone creates a bubble in my stomach. yet we never have a good conversation, it seems, though we talk for hours. i wish you would talk more, so i could drink your tangy accent and have the aftertaste in my mind for hours. reminds me of a balloon i had once, that i released. it only hit the ceiling instead of flying free. that is me, pounding my brains out for a man who will never care, nor be here. and i know i am infatuated with you. i tried to stop it. i couldn't. forgive me. 010318 ... nocturnal I think that's all I ever have. I'll think I love someone, but really it's just empty infatuation. When the real thing comes along, it better show photo id so I'll know and not just sit around waiting to figure out what's wrong with this person so I can leave them like I do now. 010412 ... silentbob so desperate so confusing so consuming Not mutual, ever. So demanding, so selfdestructive 010412 ... silentbob bothersome hateful dizzying mixture lust passion confused with love. fleeting overwhelming 020318 ... kitty i get infatuated with ideas that inspire me. suddenly they have opened and warped my entire perception of the world into something grander and more whole, and i can't imagine life without them. until i discover another idea. 020319 ... jinx I'm getting better...self-control is good. 031120 ... shivers i just cant get you out of me head 031120 ... now_now I often live by jumping one to the next but it's in those inbetween lulls those obsession voids that I realize myself what I have to offer how to content myself with myself then it's on to the next someday I will be my own infatuation and I will soar free 080314 ... no reason like a high school crush or young love 140715 ... nr a great friend once entertained the idea that maybe as we get older, we become more reasonable when it comes to matters of the heart. it's true in a sense; maybe it becomes easier to think and act rationally based on how you feel, but these feelings definitely don't disappear with age. 140715 what's it to you? who go blather from