overwhelming lostgirl i can't breathe. 100924 ... unhinged the_day_you_died the_grey_hair_you_made and when i told you how that made me feel, all you could say was my feelings were overwhelming. the fact that i cared enough to be scared shitless at the thought of you dying let alone the reality of it was overwhelming to you?! (as much as i hate using exclamation points, only an exclamation point will do) today an ambulance went blaring in the direction of your house while i was sitting at the busstop. i felt an immediate compulsion to call you, but you should have been in school and i'm trying to leave you behind. immediately, my thoughts drifted toward your funeral. but the fact that i love you is overwhelming to you. 100924 ... unhinged sometimes my heart just overflows with the suffering in the world 111231 ... epitome of incomprehensibility Okay, life, you can stop being like this now. I need some rest. At least my mother is sleeping some, and she has some quilting; the staff at the hospital aren't worried that she might stab herself with tiny little needles. But that's a long story. My boss is in another country, which is both good and bad. May/June I'm only working halftime since we get less business in the summer, and that starts next week. Right now I'm exhausted and about ready to trade money for time. 160427 what's it to you? who go blather from