surprisingly soia surprisingly, I may be feeling more optimistic now than i have in a fairly long time I think it's just because I really could not cope with the way I was feeling and I realize that I am the main cause of my own unhappiness and so I am not doing much to help others because of that and so I am learning how to be better 010302 ... guitar_freak I am speaking out against what I want most. 010314 ... unhinged i'm smiling these days and actually meaning it...not just the conditioned response. thanks mikey 010315 what's it to you? who go blather from