it_hurts_to_be sixteen overrated and know it. 030531 ... werewolf yeah, it really can sometimes 030531 ... unhinged without_him with doubt for him upsetting him distanced from him sleeping_alone crying the tears that would have made him hold me closer there is no replacement and it_hurts_to_be without_him but sometimes i think it's better to just be me but this love lingers on no matter how much i try to turn it away and they can all talk but i don't care what they have to say it_hurts_to_be the sheep among the wolves when faith, love, hope holds you there i feel the parts of me that were lost i feel the parts that were gained and even though it_hurts_to_be passed over i can't let_go cause i loved them once and it's part of me now even though it_hurts_to_be the invisible pillar in the middle of the storm it_hurts_to_be leaving but ill_always_be_here my ghost wandering i'm waiting to be miss_you_love_you but sadly enough the magic is gone goodbye it just hurts too much to be the one that knows this sad old song 030531 ... unhinged like another life now 'nobody sees tears when you're standing in the storm' atmosphere and then out of nowhere mantra_of_the_year religion transformed me they wouldn't know me now 081025 ... no reason overlooked 081025 ... no reason ignored 081025 ... no reason forgotten 081025 ... In_Bloom A conduit for other people's Joy They pass through me and find each other I'm missing when a good thing was mine to keep 081025 ... Ouroboros pathetic hollow crumpled butterfly wings 081026 ... unhinged stepping_stone just_friends yeah, in_bloom i have felt the pain of being a conduit myself. but the point of buddhism, is by giving others joy, you bring some to yourself. to revel in the path that brings you to others, that helps you help others. the trick is to keep some of the photons for yourself. even just a couple tiny little specks. then they start to accumulate. then they start to heal. then you can start to revel with them in their joy rather than being pained by it. but i have wept even recently at the thought that she made him happy 081026 ... hsg separate or to think you are the qualities which matter are inseparable . 081027 what's it to you? who go blather from