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Strideo (sigh)
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041013
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autumn that doesn't have your name in it. 041013
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pete i dont want to read anything with your name on it.. i dont understand how it makes me feel.. and because of that i know i have to read more 041014
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kookaburra i want to talk to somebody, and then in the morning have them forget everything that i said. 041014
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Syrope me too kookaburra

your place or mine?
041015
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neesh i want it to be already written, trying to edit my final chapter so it actually makes sense. it's just not very realistic. even though, actually, it's perfectly explained in a previous chapter (the wonders of meta-fiction), still seems totally artificial, contrived, to me. i'm not convinced. and if i can't convince me, then it's not good enough.

so for tonight i give up on writing :(

maybe this is why i have so many unfinished stories, whenever i get near the end, i give up, or when i get to the finishing touches, i get bored. dammit. not very useful trait for a writer to have.

i need to be less lazy.
041015
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uow i_want_to_write_everything_tonight 041015
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wheesper I just want to to right tonight. 041028
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mourninglight I want to touch my palm to someone else's..and channel EVERYTHING to them..directly..without having to say a word..or write a word..and not have them hate me for it.


agh......
041029
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Syrope that'd be nice

i have to not hate myself for the things i think, first




you ask, i answer, you don't understand, we fight, i try not to cry at work, you go to sleep, i stll have 6 hours to sit here with what i've done. why can't we argue right before I'M getting ready to sleep?
041030
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three words i_dont_want_to_write_anything_tonight
running_rambling_narritive_girl
well_you_know
060125
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oldephebe "(__)" 060125
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misstree i haven't for a long time
it makes me Feel too much
and i'd rather drift and forget
betrayal of the self? you betcha.
but much easier to bear than the alternative.
060126
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nocturnal then you came to the right place. 060126
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