why_is_pain_beautiful nonlucid bringing forth words that can tear, incite emotion better than any calm harmony ever can, the voices screaming for death in the darkness, searching for salvation searching for an escape from the pain, away from the darkness (or the searing light, searching for quiet darkness) enlightenment or just a smile art feeds off it, the easiest inspiration is agony (agony and rapture) or the quieter word depression, like a drug, addictive, maybe it's just the feeling so intense better than boredom, feel alive (and want to die) 040704 ... Borealis to a person who has lost all feeling ..any sensation at all, albeit pain or ecstasy..is the single most beautiful thing on the face of the planet. 040704 ... orange crush Pain is Love. 040704 ... notme tangenting again everything is beautiful in it's own way -ray stevens gosh that's the only line i know of that song and it's been stuck in my head for over half my life, thanks to an old tv commercial and it's annoyed me at times, at other times it's just what i needed to be singing to myself. for the longest while i refused to listen to cat stevens 'cause i got cat mixed up with ray stevens and now i like cat stevens,...but i still haven't much of a clue about ray i was listening_to_the_radio earlier today it was playing cat's father and son and now that's been in my head all afternoon and evening ... If they were right, I'd agree, but it's them you know not me. Now there's a way and I know that I have to go away. I know I have to go. -cat stevens (really i should be calling him yusuf) . 040704 ... Fyodor Dostoyevsky "Man is sometimes extraordinarily, passionately, in love with suffering and that is a fact." . 040705 what's it to you? who go blather from