in_that_photograph morphine. where you look like youre about to smile but not ....takes me takes me twirls me into knots silly pretzel me. 021220 ... bethany i wanted to be older than that seasoned girls walkin by talkin bout boys never knew i was pretty wanted to be seasoned capsaicin is it that stuff that makes you cry coz its so hot just need a lil but i had enough flavor to begin with wish i could tell myslef to be happy as i was not to go searching not to leave that place by the swing with the leaves filtering the daylight and me thinking i'd never grow up 021220 ... megan you're looking at me. you have this goofy grin on your face, i think we were laughing, but your eyes are what makes me swallow a lump in my throat. they're so full of love. you make me want to embrace the world. 021230 ... sabbie and it strikes me that what im holding on to is a photograph of something that never exsisted and i hold it up to my room and the picture doesnt match the colour of the sheets nor can i see the floor like in the photo and somehow ive gotten hold of something that never was and am trying to use it to measure what i have now against something that was never real 021230 ... megan but for this moment, i know it is... he's still embracing me after everything, and that says something in itself. 030101 ... bespeckled I looked at you with real love. 030101 ... unhinged you were smiling holding styrofoam cups like you had just been holding my hand it was almost a perfect day that day at the quarry except for when you held my hand as an excuse as a reason as a demonstration pulling me out the backdoor in front of raised eyebrows to fast getaways and terminal bliss .... it's in the journey book 030101 ... three words path in_that_photograph stand_beside_me 060310 ... jane "he is dead, and he is going to die..." -roland_barthes "camera_lucida" 090304 what's it to you? who go blather from