i_am_angry_that flexible anger is such a tragically underrated feeling. surely, it can be the pinnacle of human emotion? i know that i feel anger more strongly than i feel anything else, that no matter the volumes of apathy and nihilism i may be experiencing, i will always be angry. nothing alleviates it. i think i'm angry about that too. i am angry that in the game of life, no-one plays by the same rules. i am angry that i can't win. that no-one can. i am angry that i know i will keep trying to win, until it is the death of me. i am angry that there is not one single thing i can do about this. i am angry that i care about other people. i am angry that no-one is deserving of trust. i am angry that people always let you down. i am angry that everyone's perceptions are different. i am angry that no-one knows me. i am angry that this feels suspiciously like angst. which makes it all the less valid. i am angry that the world is such a let-down, and that i can't articulate the universal truths that seem accepted if unacknowledged in every walk of life. i'm sorry. 051105 ... Piso Mojado Heidi decided that her life wasn't worth living, and left it and us behind just_like_that 051105 ... IGG . 051106 ... Piso Mojado My father has invited his new girl-friend to Thanksgiving dinner- is he insane? Maybe we can all go visit Heidi's grave together! I bet my aunt won't have any problems trying to explain to my young cousins, that yes, Aunt Heidi is still dead, and yes, Uncle Jeff still loves her very much, and oh, by the way, this is Susan, his new special friend. Just because he is fucking ok with moving on does not mean he needs to flaunt it in the face of his parents, his sister, his neice and newphew, and his children, who are all very much still mourning. 051120 what's it to you? who go blather from