grumblings ancient they watch, but do they learn? not that all, nor even most, is intended to teach. rather it seems they mistake the sundry for the lesson, the lesson for a vague delusion. perhaps they watch because they enjoy the show, as if i were that exciting. perhaps it is a schadenfreudesque pleasure, given the vacillatory nature of this incarnation. they hear, but do they listen? not that the message is explicit, nor without the accompanying fuzz of static. what little response i receive comes always in indirect forms, though i have seldom solicited a reply. i have made many mistakes, that much is certain. yet too there have been many quiet victories, many subtle excellencies. i seek not a trophy, for the improvement of the general lot is reward enough... but just as others, i have needs that go unmet, needs that have gone unmet for too long. one can only forestall languishment for a finite time before one's capacities for the actualization of higher states begin to wither. this is as true of they as of i, and their blindness to this alarms me. perhaps some of them are the subjects of some other ancient entity; it has played out that way before, has it not? either way, their seeming unawareness of the ever-subjective nature of illumination is ultimately to everyone's detriment, and it can only be hoped that sooner than later they rectify the matter in the most harmonious manner possible. for now, i can only wonder whether they are really paying attention to what is important, for it is my suspicion that a little power has gone straight to their heads and convinced them of being something more meritorious than they really are. 100822 ... hello? who is going to read all of that? 100822 ... unhinged (maybe the point was in the writing, not in the reading) 100822 ... plop write in a book then. 100822 ... nit nobody wants to read that shit. 100822 ... minnesota_chris BOY YOU PEOPLE COMPLAIN A LOT of course, the title of this is 'grumblings' so I suppose it fits. 100822 ... unhinged and why don't you go harass each other on an instant messenger then? for fuck's sake. shut_the_fuck_up already. you are obviously missing the point of what has been going on around here for twelve years. go be rude and ignorant somewhere else already. 100823 ... plop already what? why can't you write a medium sized sentence? 100823 ... . why can't you process a sentence that is long? british television has brainwashed away your attention span, apparently. must be difficult living in a nation of intellectuals when your lot is stupidity. 100828 ... Lemon_Soda I read it. I liked it. The rude responses were either a play on the blathe's title or confused/ignorant readers who, like many, reacted to the unknown with malice. Silly monkeys. 100828 ... minnesota_chris I personally can't process a sentence that is l 101214 what's it to you? who go blather from