for_the_sake_of_minutes Paragraph Sometimes, I feel like such an ass. I'll sit there and complain about minutes, as you cry on the phone. And I know that you know I would gladly pay the bill. But here's the honest truth: I can't handle you being sad. What the fuck am I supposed to do? I sit there, completely helpless, and try to make you laugh without being obvious. all for fear i could take time out of my busy day and be sad again... I hate going to Timmy's but getting drunk is twenty times better for me than sitting at home all depressed because I can't see you (and sometimes I can't even call you.) So fuck this long distance horse-shit, I need you. 010312 ... deb so, love, what can we do instead? i have to stay here until august, what, with planning and all, and you need to stay there, so we can move there when we FINALLY make it official- if you moved out here, where would you live? would we stay here, or would we move to Colorado after the wedding? i hate this too, but i don't know what else to do~ some days it's all i can do to make myself EAT because i'm so consumed with the emptiness i've become without you- and it's a really bad thing, and i know it, but i can't seem to make myself get over it and just eat something besides half a sandwich and a handfull of jellybeans~ it breaks me being this far from the one who completes who i am but what alternative do we have? i'm asking because if there's a way around this, i'll snatch it up in a heartbeat. but right now, i'm gonna go grab a poptart and make myself eat it- the last thing i need to do is turn into anorexic chick on you~ 010312 ... unhinged i was never one for brevity. something to the effect that if 'something is worth saying it's worth taking the time to say it' 021222 ... god fever_cabin 030625 ... randomly recent sorry. ! 040201 what's it to you? who go blather from