seeing_me andrea the girl sits alone on the dock with a pen in one hand and a cigarette in the other scribbling furiously as the passersby wonder what is racing in her head copyright 2000 000828 ... birdmad something you're better off not doing 000829 ... confabulation I like people seeing me. I amuse myself with their assumptions about me--they are probably right about many things. but they don't REALLY see me, and I like that even more. But when someone DOES REALLY see me...I am frightened. Its all supposed to be a mask, I don't expect people to try and figure me out. Then they do, and I don't know what to think. 010718 ... silentbobfuckyou pony tail, in the front seat of evan's car. are you hiding from me? 010718 ... focus i wonder what people see when they see me. do they see more than what's clothes i found on my floor? or do they notice the thought in my eyes? maybe people notice how i keep to myself. maybe they notice how i keep my hands tucked safely in my pockets. maybe the girls notice when i glance at them. but then, what do they see? 010719 ... Allie -I know you- I look at you; your face, eyes, posture. I see your clothing and your jewelry. I kno wwha tkind of people dress like that. I've heard the music you listen to, and I know it is bad. I have glanced at your books, scanned the back covers. I know you shouldn't be reading thos. I know how you feel becuase I'm big and your not. I know you because I've seen you and I know you in depth because I read your chart this morning. I know exactly what you're thinking because I've seen kids like you before. I know what kind of person youare. I"understand" your issuses becasue I read about them once. I know who you are, where you've been, and I can see where your going. Straight to hell. 010720 ... RedDragon great, that's like oh you shouldn't read those books, what about the author? i guess if i'm going to hell because of reading material and superficial fashion habits...i guess i won't be in HELL all by myself 040218 ... puredream seeing me for the first time... i want you to be excited... scared... overjoyed... i want someone seeing me for the first time every time. 040603 what's it to you? who go blather from