you'll_say Photophobe And you'll say.// You don't want ambiguity_______ In your head. You want Everything. Straight up and straight ahead. But I can't think like that. I can't Breathe like that. I'd much. Prefer. Things be this way instead. And its too late to change your mind. buticanhearitcomingthroughthepipelines anditsalwaystoomuch butiwontshutitout isitalwaystoomuch But its too late to change my mind. 011222 ... girl_jane You'll say it was my fault, that I'm the one to blame. And I'll agree. 020302 ... Photophobe You'll say// You can't have anything outside your boundary lines. You want___________ The Universe. All ordered and refined. But you don't see a thing; You don't see most anything. You can't// Handle it. Outside your state of mind. But its too late to change your mind. 020308 ... continuous ache you'll say that you were sorry for hurting me didn't remember how small i was and i'll accept it- on the surface. but there is a part of me the seething, unforgiving part that will go on hating you for the rest of my life if only because i gave to you so freely, more than i had given anyone before you. i did it to make you smile, i did it to give love the real and honest chance that i had never given it, i did it and you gave me a new pain. yes, i am the poor little pup crawling back to you, belly to the ground and tail between my legs....i do miss you and i still love you....but don't ever believe that the lion isn't still waiting below that sweet exterior to make the game even again. i will always love you. i will never forget. 020320 ... blown cherry you'll say my blathes are voluntary. You'll imply that yours weren't. At least that you didn't mean them to be read by everyone. You'll say newdream.net is deleting you euniverse. You'll say you didn't expect me to go there? I'll say that was fucking stupid. And whats more is that it's fucking stupid that you hate me for following where you lead me. 020321 ... arwyn I was crazy, but you never bothered to try to understand the actual problem. You wanted someone uncomplicated who could make you the center of the universe and be a parent to you. I get it. Doesn't make you right. 181105 what's it to you? who go blather from