you_have_been_in_me string-a-ding-dong i_have_been_in_you 020903 ... nah....! watermelon_solos 020903 ... curious toys fragments of you still pump through my veins like tiny shards of broken glass, scraping through my insides you still linger 020904 ... devalis only once. now you're on the outside again and you can't know how it feels inside me my heart my mind my soul I'm in you or with you there's a difference in you... I could feel it know it show it with you technical but in me all I want is in you 020904 ... Syrope fucking bastard. i only paused once to think that traces of all the pot you smoked were in your semen, but now i learn, no! it wasn't just pot! you make me feel disgusting and used. you make me feel insigifnicant and worthless. i hate the fact that i still want you inside me, i hate the fact that my body refuses to succumb to the same despair and collapsing resignation as my heart... 020904 ... unhinged and i have been feeling the fuckhole again. it's a common center of depression in my life. 020905 ... :-( and you still are. 030515 ... . . 030515 ... unhinged but now i have to learn how to live without your_voice, the way your arms wrapped around me and your face fit so wonderfully in the palm of my hand. you made me beautiful. my smile is millions of echoes of you. 030515 ... ClairE Three years ago, on your bed, I would close my eyes and think about her to get off. [Two years ago, you were visiting a friend and I intercepted you in his room and later I started crying in the middle and told you to stop, because I couldn't.] Two days ago, I was visiting her and all three of us went to dinner together. She sat across the table and you sat next to me. It wasn't until afterwards that I realized how I used to see you both together in my head in bed. Somehow it makes sense that it doesn't bother me. At all. 031028 ... unhinged the_friend_fallacy 140615 ... flowerock lovers_and_fetuses and parasites... 140615 what's it to you? who go blather from