when_you_hate_yourself stork daddy it's hard to understand that you're a source of happiness to someone else. it's hard to understand that you're not doing them a favor by getting the hell out of dodge. 040814 ... piercedjenny its hard to see that up is up, and where you are isn't anywhere different from where a thousand people have been a million times before you. 040814 ... Lila Pause You view the world through somebody else's prescription ashen_colored_glasses. 040815 ... sab the whole world is hard edged and cold silver 040815 ... Raina You shut down and simultaneously refuse to let light in, or let light shine from within. Someone may love your dirty drawls, but you just feel shitty. 040815 ... kookaburra it's kind of hard to smile 040816 ... TK you isolate yourself from others and -from livening- you feel that you don’t deserve friends and to be treated nicely and besides they'll just eventfully hate you as well so why bother and go though such agony when its not necessary to do so, and you isolate yourself from livening bc you feel as if you don't really deserve the wonderful gift of being alive, you don’t deserve happiness or for that matter any positive emotion. When you hate yourself you seek out pain bc you feel -that- is all -the only- thing you deserve. so may years of my life have been waisted on hateing myself.... 040816 ... TK it's a hard habbit to break. 040816 ... uow people are either joking with you, or telling you a lie, or just being nice when they say they like you 040816 ... uow and maybe when you look around you can see beauty everywhere but in your self you just feel like you are contaminating the earth you wonder if the world really needs all your stupidness maybe everyone would be better off without your ugliness 040816 ... uow etc.) 040816 what's it to you? who go blather from