unhinged_in_honolulu unhinged i just got back this morning after sixteen hours and three airplanes. it was a native vacation. rolling in my brother's jeep listening to west coast rap, taking his lab/ridgeback mix to the beach, hanging out on campus, in makiki, at the rise. i am now utterly and thouroughly convinced of the power of sunshine. but i'm still white as a ghost after the spf 50 i slathered on myself every morning to avoid sun poisoning. i was a tourist in neighborhoods where the tourists don't go, my white white skin a badge and testament. i got so high i fainted. standing on matt's balcony in waikiki, dehydrated, anemic, stoned off my ass literally, i blacked out. my brother caught me before i smacked my head and then proceeded to yell at me about why i shouldn't be a vegetarian. i went to the lithography studio at uh with my brother and his girlfriend kelli. she gave me a lithograph she made of my brother and her friend bella. the art building is a weird open air construction with little hidden alcoves all over. paul was cruising on his skate and renee and roxanna were drinking beers in a little hidden spot. we all drank and smoked while jeff and kelli tagged and paul skated. paul fell and knocked his head on roxanna's board. the island invaded my speech. my brother kept asking me if i was having a good time saying he felt like a bad host. i kept reminding him that it didn't matter what i was doing as long as we were together. his dog hiro is the fucking cutest dog on the whole damn planet. i am not a dog person and i was in_love with this puppy. an essentially black ridgeback with no ridge and a labrador shaped snout, hiro had the temperament of a ridgeback. a big pouty baby that couldn't stand to be left alone. so he chewed up my brother's glasses, t.v. remote, weeping buddha i gave him for his birthday when he first moved out (*pout*), all kinds of shit. but mostly plastic. i don't know how that dog's gut didn't explode. but he's only a year old, still a puppy and stuff. and it's so hard to stay mad at him with those big pouty eyes. the eraser --- thom yorke rocky raccoon --- the beatles hold you in my arms --- ray_lamontagne the good times are killing me --- modest_mouse .... biggie atmosphere felt mac dre 070310 ... ever dumbening green did you get to watch him shred? 070310 ... unhinged nope. he doesn't really surf anymore. he told me that it's because the waves haven't been good this winter and he's a surf snob. from what i could tell, he was right. but down on the southshore isn't where the really good waves are anyways and we stayed down there hanging in makiki and wilhelmina rise. i think he hasn't been surfing because he's been going through some shit for the past six months or so. surfing would probably do him good if that's the case. *shrugs* he might be moving to north shore in a couple weeks with his girlfriend and their dog. maybe that will entice him to get back in the water. he just started skateboarding though because his current group of friends and his girlfriend are skate punks from san francisco. i was with him when he bought his board so that was kinda cool. but he has a collection of surf boards in his room. like five of them in different shapes and sizes stacked against the wall. he's one of those boys that has a thing for the toys and people tend to get rid of boards dirt cheap when they leave the island. i didn't do some of the shit i wanted to do because i didn't want to put my brother out. the stoner life on oahu isn't half bad though. heh. with that much sunshine and good looking people afoot, it's pretty much impossible to get down about stuff for too long. well, if you don't live there that is. 070311 ... bird sticking close to his new nest sounds like a hell of a good time i've got the vacation time to burn, but i'm barely done paying for this past October's move so that means no real serious vacationing for me until i can save up some scratch My uncles invited me to hitch a ride with them to visit the familia down on the gulf coast, but nice though she may be, i'm not enthused about the idea of letting the Jesus-lady have free access to my apartment if i go, seeing as how she's a technically "crazy" Jesus lady 070312 ... unhinged it was a super good time. part of me is happy to be home. part of me could have stayed there forever with him. it was my second time out there; the first time we did all the tourist bullshit. the native version was much cooler and a lot more fun. i gotta go native from now on no matter where i go. 070312 ... unhinged far from the point of my geographical origin orange dirt rather than brown mango trees rather than plum volcanic mountains young rather than rolling hills old far from the point of my linguistic origin 'yo howlie, da kine one time' rather than 'hey cracka, got a dime?' far from the point of my musical origin biggie rather than the beastie boys (funny how foreign cities bring out the hip hop in me, even before i knew it) far from the point of my vehicular origin a busted down jeep cherokee rather than a new dodge minivan far from the point of my botanical chemical origin so mellow i passed out rather than shaking hands tweaked so far from the point of my origin so far i learned that family is where you find it family is where you make it distance only stops love if you let it 070316 ... e anela alala hao'le 070316 ... night marcher just a minor correction there, not tryin to be rude 070316 ... unhinged no problem; i was actually wondering what the hawaiian spelling of that was anyways :-P 070316 ... . what happened to your sherbet dip? its all soggy... ? 070316 ... unhinged i wish you would have been in town while i was there bitch. you broke my brother; you don't get to have him anymore. you should go back to washington once and for all. i wish you would have been there while i was so i could have told you to keep your fucking whore ass away from my brother. 070325 ... hsg1437 well there... you should still be a vegetarian. tell your matt about iron absorption and vitamin C & bioavailability.. . 070326 ... unhinged i am planning on staying a vegetarian. but i might add fish back into my diet at strategic times of the month. currently i just buy fortified cereal and eat more spinach. he wants me to go to the doctor and get tested for anemia. i would say i don't need tested; i would say 98% sure i am anemic being a girl vegetarian and stuff. 070326 ... hang loose nicole 080210 ... unhinged today of all days i wish i was going again this winter damn 080210 ... unhinged but my brother and kelli are 'getting together' my belated christmas present. when presents involve gathering, that is quite exciting indeed. and since kelli has something to do with it, i'm even more excited. getting hawaii in the mail is a poor man's approximation. perfect timing too since i was in need of something to look forward to. 080211 ... unhinged this time last year just came back this year no flight voucher *pout* maybe my tax return can pay for my trip this year 080311 ... unhinged listening to atmosphere reminds me of rolling in your black jeep windows rolled down stereo turned up it's hard to hide a magic card when you wear a short sleeve and i wish that i had something to say that could wipe that smile right off of your face come here take my hand you know my name blame it all on the game i said i'll make you smile for the simple fact i'm good at it i'll make you smile just so i can sit and look at it i will show you all you need to know you must hold on to anyone that wants you and i will love you through simple and the struggle but girl you gotta understand the modern man must hustle hush little lady don't say a word or the rest of the village gonna know you're disturbed and if you let em know that you're vulnerable then there ain't no stopping how far they open you slow 080501 ... unhinged it's been too long miss you brother so much it hurts 081006 ... unhinged (i think that was a metaphor for our relationship, my brother catching me as i was falling before i could seriously hurt myself. he kept giving me his concerned side_eye big brother look while him and his friends played guitar hero. and i know better than anyone on the planet, as tough as my brother pretends to be, he's really the softest snuggliest teddy bear alive) 081007 ... unhinged (he stopped surfing because he had a serious wipeout and almost drowned. just by luck, the ocean pushed him back up on the shore instead of swallowing him whole.) will he stay or will he go? i still don't know 090424 ... unhinged soon to be unhinged_in_san_francisco bought my brother and his pup a plane ticket to move december 18th 2009 my brother comes back to the continent about damn time 091023 what's it to you? who go blather from