it_still_hurts Eowithien I don't understand that despite how much I may ever understand that I will always be upset after something good, that I will always lose a friend every year, that I will always fail at seeing how to act correctly; that it still hurts. That after all I've put myself through, especially all those things that shouldn't be such a big deal, it still hurts me. A lot. I get physically ill from my emotional anguish, thats just how pathetic it is. I could just kill myself sometimes, but that would hurt too. And I'm tired of hurting from everything, especially the trivial things. 040228 ... chiidi It shouldn't, but the usual visitor from Big Water Clan comes by the office on business and mentions a name i would just as soon forget if i could (because that would make things equal) bringing up a subject that manages to bring me back down that, and the dull, stiff ache from a few blunt, heavy impacts to the knees that i took over the course of a couple of years a long, long time ago 040229 ... Dozyn I took a chance with a friend and now she's not one anymore. Not by my choice, but it hurts. Alone I now have nobody to confide in Slowly the dark feeling creeps again. Life brings us beautiful people to us, only for ourselves to destroy any friendship that may become. 040301 ... Dozyn Not so long ag It_still_hurt But as before no more She has left And good I say But once again I feel whole Alone in this world No one to hold in this hole 060125 ... nom to be here 060207 what's it to you? who go blather from