last_contact klairchen I have returned for awhile. To see your face for a moment. To rush past your shadow and hear whispering. My shadow touched yours. I suppose I should be happy. 001004 ... grendel yes, please do stay awhile spend a moment in the moonshadows with the lost souls stay awhile longer 001004 ... littleidiot it would be weird to wear only one contact-lense. i like glasses. 021127 ... littleidiot LENS. damnit. 021127 ... from now on lost_contact 041113 ... Risen I cannot remember it. I'm heading to the place I think I last saw her. I'm staying there for a week, and I don't know if it is where we had our last contact. And I know, I know it_should_be silence. I should be silent. I shouldn't care. I shouldn't remember. I shouldn't try. When you forget the last_contact, surely you should be ready to move on. Right? Maybe I would have moved on if I had a normal life right now. If I could imagine going outside and seeing anyone, or letting anyone see me - whether or not it had romantic overtones. I don't think romance is possible in the foreseeable future. Maybe that's why I don't think it's worth it. Rationalisation. 170507 ... unhinged it's been three years. i found something I wrote about him around here the other day and my mind keeps drifting back. after three years. because everything ive had since has been fleeting and unsatisfying at best. i have decided to stop chasing anything or anyone but my own happiness because i am the only one i can count on for gratitude. but there's still a dull aching in my heart where you used to be 170507 what's it to you? who go blather from