falling_down
pushpins whoohoo!
clutching tickets to heaven,
my flight leaves in the beginning of june.
and the dreams dance in my head,
just as sweet as the sugarplum dreams
in "the night before christmas"
but much more naughty.
and I sigh and slide
into my seat,
hitting #1 to hear the message repeat
in my voicemail
because I love the way he says
"Whats up Jamie?"
and then its erased
because i'll hear more of that later.
and once its all blank,
the plain appears
with white burning my eyes
without shadows.
and the vacancy
is depressing
in all its confining glory.
and with a *pop*
and a *whizz* and a *bang*
--because I love onomatopoeia--
this guy appears
gaunt
and worn
and I recognize him,
this familiar_stranger ((enuff references to that yet?, lol).
and shoulders sag
and my tickets
fall into the milky pools
of nothingness and cliched rhymes and phrases and feelings.
and I remember the love
and the speed
and the passion
and I want to die for you
in a blissful rose petal way,
but all I can do
is stare at
happiness_in_a_harness 		020228
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birdmad watching old movies again "i'm the bad guy?" 020228
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yummyC im sorry
i dont knwo what to do besides cry and its elfish and its the consuming sort of sobs where your stomach curls until you are in a ball on the floor wailing and i halfway just want to be held but i cant think of anyone who will without having been part of the reason im crying or wanting to know too much.
wait
im leaving. 		020228
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unhinged there are only certain heights
that i can reach
without you
my little chameleon
hiding in the dark
finding far jet planes
and higher slopes
a simple question
is always just a little bit more
a simple statement
more than i ever wanted
i can't breathe
my heart seems to be stopping
shush
i never want to take another breath
without_you 		020301
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yummyC ouch, my knees are at your mercy
on the cold cement
scraping away at my bruises
from falling before
just for you
all for you.
it seems all you want me to do. 		020302
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daf Fucking breathtakingly beautiful, Nicole. 140531
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mobius trip D-FENS! 140531
what's it to you?
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