totally_fucked_up j_blue a flick about gay_teen_suicide short film, in two halves the first half is actually 15 fragments, that set up the environment the second half contains main plot 010124 ... . d e k c u f y l l a t o t 050511 ... Lila Pause I'm totally fucked up. Should I make an appointment to see my psychiatrist again? No- it's just life. What are we going to do? commiserate together over champagne? (it better be Dom Perignon at $50 a session.) 050511 ... . Have a lie down on my couch, dearie (leers), and drink this. 050511 ... unhinged my fingerboard fell off my violin today MY FINGERBOARD FELL OFF MY VIOLIN how the FUCK does that happen? and where the fuck am i going to get it fixed around here? what...the....FUCK; my life always gets unneccessarily complicated when i need it to be simple the most. 050511 ... god damn nic. you musta been burnin' it up. 050511 ... Insertanameyoudlikehere Audio_blather Audio_blath ...ssrry gotta find it. 050512 ... unhinged even more fucked up.... i went to the top violin dealer in chicago to get my instrument fixed and a friend of mine was looking at cellos....after playing on $30,000 cellos for a few hours the salesman helping us asked them if they wanted to play some 'old' cellos. he first brought out a vuillame from like 1865 worth like $300,000. then just to make us all have a heart attack he brought out a nicolo amati from 1669 worth $1.5 million. $1.5 MILLION .... goddoubledamn. i was ten feet away from one of the rarest instruments in the world; there are only 12 nicolo amati cellos left in existence. and i was more than just a little jealous that they got to play on it. 050513 ... unhinged starting a band in youngstown dj, guitar, bass, violin, and vocals my summer recording project gone awry; the day i PLAY in cedars is going to be one fucked up day my friend. 050516 what's it to you? who go blather from