cedars unhinged the best place in youngstown for ivet shows before i knew that industrial_abandonment i was obsessed with the grunge coming out of the pacific northwest and seemingly by chance ended up living there now i love the forests the trees the smell i bathe myself in it a supposedly male shower gel the synthetic version of the giant trees pale in comparison to the scent memory of a summer day in an older forest now i know with my heart why the first peoples around here revere these trees in my middle age i can't help but notice the echoes of the past that still linger frequencies that repeat and amplify through time i want to be close to the ancient dirt i want to heal things me others the planet these recent years have shook me le_petit_mort amour_des_bois i feel new mountains on the horizon new chapters with new characters i will take the joy wherever i find it leaving smiles in exchange i stand close to the massive trunk and can feel the cool air nature's air conditioner working their magic my thoughts flitter away in amazement just_breathe inhale the medicine calm your heart a smile crosses my lips again i pat the massive trunk thank_you 220911 what's it to you? who go blather from